He's trying hard to keep control and lead the way 
He's finding all the perfect words to say to me 
I'm climbing stairs with only one thing on my mind 
To kick a habit of lost opportunity 
It's only natural to want what doesn't come 
I swiped away all of the pawns under my thumb 
But like the ending of a one act play 
The curtain closes and the actors run away 
And I'm up against the wall 
Wondering why 
I came at all 
Yes, I'm up against the wall 
Trying to disappear oh 
I look around and watch the world as it goes by 
Wondering how small, how small am 
I He makes a gesture to distract me from a thought 
It goes against most everything that 
I've been taught 
It's when you wake up and you can't go back to sleep 
It's when you wonder 'bout the company you keep 
It's when you wake up in the middle of your life 
And you just can't cut it with the dull end of a knife 
And I'm up against the wall 
Wondering why 
I came at all 
Yes, I'm up against the wall 
Trying to disappear oh 
You know, the way you're walkin' makes you seem larger than life 
You turn the key to door, you're turning me on 
My mind spins high above the world 
That's the way 
I feel It's only natural to want what doesn't come 
I swiped away all of the pawns under my thumb 
But like the ending of a one act play 
The curtain closes and the actors run away 
And I'm up against the wall 
Wondering why 
I came at all 
Yes, I'm up against the wall 
Trying to disappear oh