[00:17.55]Can't even eat, can't even sleep
[00:19.99]Can't even find a friend that I can keep
[00:22.19]Can't even know I'll get better
[00:23.79]Cause I'm sick and tired my body is broken and weak
[00:26.69]They say I'm okay, they call it phase
[00:28.93]They say I'll soon come to see my better days
[00:31.17]My better days are all in the past
[00:33.41]The day that I want is only my last
[00:35.66]Everyday I wake up same old sh1t
[00:37.70]Same life, same thoughts, same all black fit
[00:40.15]Hate that I feel like this, man I need a wish
[00:42.70]It would be when I die to be missed
[00:44.69]Everything I do just feels so wrong
[00:46.84]These 17 years been way too long
[00:48.91]Honestly would of been dead
[00:50.61]If I never found life in the sound when I'm making these songs
[00:53.52]Sorry at times I'm just way like too honest
[00:55.82]And dont filter out what I say
[00:58.00]Sorry I lie when I'm not feelin' good
[01:00.26]You say how you been I say okay
[01:02.41]Sorry I get out of hand
[01:04.08]And I tell you to leave when I want you to stay
[01:06.90]I know you want me to be happy
[01:08.57]I really dont think it's in my DNA
[01:11.26]I want the best for me too
[01:13.14]You think I wanna be sad and I wanna be blue
[01:16.00]I wanna work on myself
[01:17.65]I wanna start being me and stop looking at you
[01:20.47]I wanna do something right, when you're in the dark
[01:23.21]I wanna help be your light
[01:24.95]When you're not okay I just want you to know it'll end
[01:27.66]And everything's gonna be right
[01:29.51]The bottle is empty aint more pills
[01:31.61]So much pain I'm bouta feel
[01:33.45]I need a drxg that'll take my emotion away
[01:35.86]And just make it not feel like its real
[01:37.75]I need a feeling to stay that'll make all my time on this earth
[01:41.22]Feel like its worth
[01:42.36]My only curse, that is my birth
[01:44.67]How do I feel? I'm only worse
[01:47.40]Everyday I wake up same old sh1t
[01:49.38]Same life, same thoughts, same all black fit
[01:51.89]Hate that I feel like this, man I need a wish
[01:54.36]It would be when I die to be missed
[01:56.46]Everything I do just feels so wrong
[01:58.60]These 17 years been way too long
[02:00.69]Honestly would of been dead
[02:02.38]If I never found life in the sound when I'm making these songs
[02:05.49]Sorry at times I'm just way like too honest
[02:07.59]And dont filter out what I say
[02:09.62]Sorry I lie when I'm not feelin' good
[02:11.97]You say how you been I say okay
[02:14.26]Sorry I get out of hand and I tell you to leave
[02:16.92]When I want you to stay
[02:18.73]I know you want me to be happy
[02:20.37]I really dont think it's in my DNA