Can't even eat, can't even sleep
Can't even find a friend that I can keep
Can't even know I'll get better
Cause I'm sick and tired my body is broken and weak
They say I'm okay, they call it phase
They say I'll soon come to see my better days
My better days are all in the past
The day that I want is only my last
Everyday I wake up same old sh1t
Same life, same thoughts, same all black fit
Hate that I feel like this, man I need a wish
It would be when I die to be missed
Everything I do just feels so wrong
These 17 years been way too long
Honestly would of been dead
If I never found life in the sound when I'm making these songs
Sorry at times I'm just way like too honest
And dont filter out what I say
Sorry I lie when I'm not feelin' good
You say how you been I say okay
Sorry I get out of hand
And I tell you to leave when I want you to stay
I know you want me to be happy
I really dont think it's in my DNA
I want the best for me too
You think I wanna be sad and I wanna be blue
I wanna work on myself
I wanna start being me and stop looking at you
I wanna do something right, when you're in the dark
I wanna help be your light
When you're not okay I just want you to know it'll end
And everything's gonna be right
The bottle is empty aint more pills
So much pain I'm bouta feel
I need a drxg that'll take my emotion away
And just make it not feel like its real
I need a feeling to stay that'll make all my time on this earth
Feel like its worth
My only curse, that is my birth
How do I feel? I'm only worse
Everyday I wake up same old sh1t
Same life, same thoughts, same all black fit
Hate that I feel like this, man I need a wish
It would be when I die to be missed
Everything I do just feels so wrong
These 17 years been way too long
Honestly would of been dead
If I never found life in the sound when I'm making these songs
Sorry at times I'm just way like too honest
And dont filter out what I say
Sorry I lie when I'm not feelin' good
You say how you been I say okay
Sorry I get out of hand and I tell you to leave
When I want you to stay
I know you want me to be happy
I really dont think it's in my DNA