Call me when you find it
Dont know why I deny it
And sometimes when i have it
I'm so scared I try to hide it
You can see it when I'm lyin
You tell me I'm not trying
But its not until I break
You understand why I can't write it
I just fall down to my knees
Begging please pain just leave me be
Please take this life thats filled with rejection away from me
Promise I won't miss it
But da** it I can't quit it
Nowadays I am only working
So one day my momma isnt
I'm sorry for all the tears
I'm sorry for all the lies
I'm sorry I say im quitting
I'm failed on so many tries
I'm tired I just wish that I could sleep
Find me where the love and the hatred can come to meet
I'll never forget when I made some songs
and these people they sing along and my third one got a milli
So where did I go so wrong
and I swear this ain't the end of it swear this just the start but im fighting with my head and my weapon is my heart yea
I used to dream of being famous having stacks of bread
I used to think that all this pain was only in my head
I used to think that things would change but now I see instead
I was wrong for thinking that this music wouldn't want me dead
I was on my own I sold my soul I went to hell and back
Once he saw what I can do the devil tried to sell it back
Lost myself in dr** i dont how to start to find the track
Found the light I love the dark nobody ever tells you that
I ain't understood im just overlooked
I'm just tryna catch a flight on a plane thats overbooked
I'm just lost, can't be found, pieces of me on the ground
Piece of me with every sound, cause this **** it tears me down
Fall to shreds, glue me up, fall again and walk away
All my friends, knew me young, but these friends they never stay
It's alright, it's okay, all that matters now is plays
Ain't it crazy how my life it just became another game