Your boys met me at the gates
Dangled keys and hazed
With promised fates.
I wish I could unknow what it's like
To have my body made a battlefield.
They paid until I owed
Felt so trapped
Like I'd been bought and sold.
While they played power games, got stoned,
I blamed myself and forgot who was in control.

I've walked too deep inside a man's world
Lost my strength
Forgotten what I came for
And I know I'm not the first
That you've made defend her word
When I refuse to be coerced
Somehow I'm subversive?
I'll take the blacklist, I'll do time
But I'm not guilty
So why do I feel guilty?
So guilty

As the gavel pounds
Touch my navel and I know deep down
Came all this way to see the shape your silhouette makes
When you turn from me.
I've walked too deep inside a man's world
Lost my strength
Forgotten what I came for

And I know I'm not the first
That you've made defend her word
When I refuse to be coerced
Somehow I'm subversive?
I'll take the blacklist, I'll do time
But I'm not guilty
So why do I feel guilty?
So guilty
Why do I feel guilty?
So guilty
Can I forgive myself, for myself?
Too heavy to carry
Can I forgive myself, for myself?
Too heavy to carry

And I know I'm not the first
That you've made defend her word
When I refuse to be coerced
Somehow I'm subversive?
I'll take the blacklist, I'll do time
But I'm not guilty
So why do I feel guilty?
So guilty
Why do I feel guilty?
So guilty
Why should I feel
Why should I feel so guilty?
Why should I feel so guilty?
No no no no no