[00:18.116][Verse 1]
[00:18.299]Yo I watch you walk away cause
[00:20.180]I didn't think you'd leave
[00:21.355]I thought that you knew
[00:22.609]That you meant everything to me
[00:23.706]I know we get mad
[00:24.751]And we yell and blow steam
[00:25.979]But now you're gone
[00:27.076]I only see you in my dreams
[00:28.382]Don't know what to do
[00:29.636]Cause lately I've been lacking passion
[00:30.837]Self inflicted pain
[00:31.830]Just to cause a damn reaction
[00:33.188]Telling people not to cut
[00:34.338]I'm lying to the masses
[00:35.566]Cause I've been in my room
[00:36.715]With the blade ****ing laughing
[00:38.021]Now I love the pain
[00:39.040]It's evolved to an addiction
[00:40.529]Only time my head is straight
[00:41.574]Is off the prescriptions
[00:42.854]But the voices in my head
[00:44.264]Tell me keep resisting
[00:45.362]So I shed the tears
[00:46.250]And stare into the distance
[00:47.634]Don't know what I'm looking for
[00:48.757]But now I know it's hope
[00:50.064]And I'm not gonna find that
[00:51.239]From these pills or the ****
[00:52.310]Burned in my emotions
[00:53.616]With each breath of the smoke
[00:54.922]I know that this time
[00:55.863]I'll find a better way to cope
[01:06.442][Verse 2]
[01:06.625]I gave you every part of me
[01:08.166]Everything I had
[01:09.316]You embrace the good
[01:10.361]And you tone on the bad
[01:11.536]Said that we'd be fine
[01:12.738]And that you'd always have my back
[01:14.201]But now you're gone I'm alone feeling like trash
[01:16.264]I'm the love ship sinker
[01:17.623]Dumb kid singer
[01:18.798]Tough boy demeanor
[01:19.895]I'm the stupid over thinker
[01:21.045]I've been tryna solve my problems
[01:22.403]With the hit of a blunt I won't lie
[01:24.180]I ain't been sober In months
[01:25.799]I just smoke when I feel like
[01:27.366]No one gives a ****
[01:28.464]Or when I'm in the dump Just wishing to give it up
[01:30.762]That's every single day
[01:32.068]These drugs are now apart of me
[01:33.557]I'm a painter who's confused And lacking artistry