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[00:21.355] Life's a confusing search
[00:22.469] From birth till you lay in the cold, black earth
[00:24.686] And your soul is reunited with the universe
[00:26.951] Supreme peace, all a nigga ever knew was hurt
[00:29.552] It's like every colored child in the womb is cursed
[00:32.094] To be labeled as a ****ing criminal or worse
[00:34.717] And it pains me to see anguish in me
[00:37.330] Explained in a paragraph, laid in a beat
[00:39.849] I epitomize a rough life, hoping the judge might
[00:42.728] Show compassion, we were moving crushed white
[00:45.374] My man got caught with a four that wouldn't bust right
[00:47.789] Plus marked money, you could say he had a rough night
[00:50.228] Who laws' enforced when you standing in court, remanded
[00:52.816] The D's seized a ki and half of that vanished
[00:55.789] Life is deeper than you'll ever understand it
[00:57.808] Sometimes I wonder how the **** I ever manage
[01:00.491] This is the other side, often glorified
[01:03.486] But never lived, I know what it is to fall and rise
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[01:10.555] Shorty's life was no joke
[01:13.308] He never met his father and his mama was on dope
[01:15.814] Then she took an overdose and died, you know how it goes
[01:18.567] Left shorty alone with no home, stone broke
[01:21.004] Now he in the game at fifteen years old
[01:23.129] Enduring the winter nights till his feet get cold
[01:25.730] Frequently on the phone, his girlfriend was beautiful
[01:28.365] With goals, so they argue 'bout his lifestyle as usual
[01:30.954] Time goes on and she eventually left
[01:33.450] Sick of him going to jail and near brushes with death
[01:35.934] She gave him an ultimatum but she knew he would choose
[01:38.431] To return to a game with ever-changing rules
[01:40.890] And when she stayed in school, now he resting in peace
[01:43.549] And the crack is still selling where he bled in the street
[01:45.907] This is the other side, often glorified
[01:49.750] But never lived, I know what it is to fall and rise
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[02:02.067] My appetite was destructive, I swallowed my pride
[02:04.424] When the connect suggested it's best if I just rhyme
[02:06.502] Ultimately, we both knew the choice was mine
[02:08.963] Coulda hit me with that ki, but he want me to shine
[02:11.470] I could see sincereness in his eyes
[02:14.222] We both was still here and our man just died
[02:16.324] He told me park my V and we went for a ride
[02:19.202] Then he said he's yet to hear lyrics realer than mine
[02:21.651] His words froze my soul as if suspended in time
[02:24.206] My conscience and greed were prepared to collide
[02:26.608] He told me if I need currency, he will provide
[02:29.244] And he would rather give me money than give me consignment
[02:32.287] The choice is mine, I could use my voice to rhyme
[02:34.422] Or pursue exploits in crime while trying to e-void time
[02:37.069] It's deceiving, meaning it ain't always on your side
[02:39.462] Yet the answer came easy when my daughter arrived
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