[ti:Deja Vu]
[ar:Eminem]
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[00:01.37]DMC, we have a mid-thirties male found down, unresponsive
[00:05.12]Possible overdose, substance unknown
[00:07.68]Pulse is 60 and thready, respiration's eight
[00:10.69]He's intubated and we're bagging him now
[00:12.74]BP 90 over palp
[00:14.73]Patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic
[00:17.01]Has aspirated, GSC is 3
[00:19.70]We'll update en route ETA ten minutes
[00:22.16]As I fall deeper into a manic state
[00:25.14]I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait
[00:28.74]Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
[00:30.88]I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate
[00:34.40]Start off with the NyQuil like, I think I'll just have a taste
[00:37.30]Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate
[00:39.87]To a harder prescription drug called Valium like, yeah that's great
[00:43.09]I go to just take one, and I end up like having eight
[00:45.92]Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate
[00:48.84]Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak
[00:51.65]And you'd think that with all I have at stake
[00:53.83]Look at my daughter's face
[00:55.24]"Mommy, something is wrong with Dad I think
[00:57.29]He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me
[01:00.20]Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me
[01:03.01]And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos
[01:05.47]And he just fell asleep in his car
[01:07.16]eating 3 Musketeers in the rear seat"
[01:08.65]Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
[01:11.90]Feels like I been down this road before
[01:14.50]So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
[01:17.81]As soon as I go home and close the door
[01:20.18]Kinda feels like déjà vu
[01:22.57]I wanna get away from this place, I do
[01:25.27]But I can't and I won't
[01:26.62]Say I try, but I know that's a lie
[01:28.83]Cause I don't, and why I just don't know
[01:31.22]"Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?"
[01:34.00]That's the devil in my ear I've been sober a ****in' year
[01:36.73]And that ****er still talks to me he's all I can ****in' hear
[01:39.50]"Marshall, come on we'll watch the game
[01:42.72]It's the Cowboys and Buccaneers"
[01:44.31]And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half-buzzed
[01:46.99]For half of the time
[01:47.96]Who's the mastermind behind that little line?
[01:50.39]With that kind of rationale, man I got half a mind
[01:52.85]To have another half a glass of wine
[01:54.94]Sounds asinine, yeah I know,
[01:56.40]But I never had no problem with alcohol
[01:58.59]Ouch, look out for the wall
[02:00.23]Aim for the couch, I'm 'bout to fall
[02:01.80]I missed the couch and down I go lookin' like a bouncy ball
[02:04.64]Shit musta knocked me out 'Cause I ain't feel the ground at all
[02:07.33]Wow, what the **** happened last night? Where am I?
[02:10.18]Man, **** am I hungover, and goddamn I
[02:12.86]Got a headache, shit half a Vicodin, why can't I
[02:15.76]All systems ready for take off, please stand by
[02:18.87]Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
[02:22.11]Feels like I been down this road before
[02:24.74]So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
[02:27.80]As soon as I go home and close the door
[02:30.46]Kinda feels like déjà vu
[02:32.63]I wanna get away from this place, I do
[02:35.59]But I can't and I won't
[02:36.87]Say I try, but I know that's a lie
[02:38.90]Cause I don't, and why I just don't know
[02:42.20]So I take a Vicodin, splash it hits my stomach then, ahhhh
[02:45.45]Couple of weeks go by it ain't even like I'm gettin' high
[02:48.07]Now I need it just not to feel sick, yeah I'm gettin' by
[02:50.94]Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die
[02:53.92]Oh yeah, there's an excuse, you lose Proof so you use
[02:56.57]There's new rules, it's cool if it's helpin' you to get through
[02:59.45]It's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self inducin' a snooze
[03:02.32]What else is new, **** it what would Elvis do in your shoes
[03:05.16]Now here I am three months later, full-blown relapse
[03:08.12]Just get high until the kids get home from school, holmes Relax
[03:11.10]And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac
[03:13.79]I need these pills to be able to sleep, so I take three naps
[03:16.66]Just to be able to function throughout the day, let's see
[03:19.42]That's an Ambien each nap, how many Valium, three
[03:22.37]And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep
[03:26.19]Ok, so now ya see, the reason how come he
[03:29.08]Has taken four years to just put out an album, B
[03:31.83]See, me and you, we almost had the same outcome Heath
[03:34.66]'Cause that Christmas you know the whole pneumonia thing?
[03:37.50]It was bologna, was it the methadone, ya think?
[03:40.35]Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos
[03:42.89]Your VCR tape cases, with your Ambien CR
[03:45.62]Great places to hide 'em, ain't it?
[03:47.39]So you can lie to Hailie
[03:48.80]I'm goin' beddy bye, Whitney baby
[03:50.60]Good night Alaina!
[03:51.68]Go in the room and shut the bedroom door
[03:53.97]And wake up in an ambulance
[03:55.33]They said they found me on the bathroom floor
[03:58.20]Damn
[03:58.82]Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
[04:02.05]Feels like I been down this road before
[04:04.67]So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
[04:07.94]As soon as I go home and close the door
[04:10.43]Kinda feels like déjà vu
[04:12.51]I wanna get away from this place, I do
[04:15.39]But I can't and I won't
[04:16.97]Say I try, but I know that's a lie
[04:19.09]Cause I don't, and why I just don't know
[04:23.43]Elamivl