I looked up at the ceiling the entire time
Well it didn’t last for long
Like 15 minutes or so
They had said it would hurt
But it didn’t
His face all grumped up
Veins were showing on his forehead
Closed my eyes and thought of dancers
Closed my eyes and thought of dancers
I thought of what my friends would say
I thought of how my life would change
I just laid real still there on the bed
Afterwards I said
Like I hear you’re supposed to:
Was it good for you as well
He was proud  said: ??
Ok we can do it again
But maybe this time
You can do it better than this
You can do it better than this
You can do it better than this
I kuow You can do it better than this
I faked to come
Because I hear you’re supposed to
There was obviously something wrong
With me and I didn’t want him to know
I was afraid he’d have
A heartattack and die
I went to work at the shoestore
And waved him goodbye
I felt sad  but I didn’t know why
Do you want those in red  I said
250 with laces  I said
Years later
I can still vision that forehead