How in the **** did I manage to lose every person I spent all my time with.
Tryna create a connection thats stronger than time and that could be considered as timeless.
It hurts even more cause I'm still tryna figure out where in the hell it went wrong.
I don't wanna talk about how much it hurts to a person so I take it out on a song.
I take it out on myself, I take it out on my physical and mental health.
I ******* hate what I felt, I'm getting worse and I don't even think you can tell.
I make myself wanna quit, filling my mind with a person I need to forget.
Honestly I'm ******* pissed, I can't see the future but I never thought it'd be this.
I don't really wanna try meeting new friends.
I don't wanna waste my time on something that'll end.
What the **** is happy? I can only pretend.
Leaving it to God in itself is a sin.
You're the only person with the power in your life.
That can change for the better with the state that you're in.
You're the only person that can give your life a purpose on this earth.
And make it all worth it again.
I don't wanna feel this pain.
I don't wanna play this game.
I don't wanna keep writing songs that're sad.
I just want my life to change.
I just don't wanna let life slip away, and die with a void of regret.
I don't wanna keep waking up and not get out of bed because I'm too upset.