Hmm, I don’t even wanna ********* do this song for real But I wouldn’t be real if I didn’tI be sitting by myself and I be thinking, mama what have I becomeAll I wanted was a family but I when I look I be the only one Losing everything but money, everybody left And I don’t even get to see my young Only happiness I get is in the studio When I get to do another run On the road, doing shows, get the woes when it slows Getting cold, getting owed, but the flows getting sowed I been doing this a minute, but I think I want to end it‘ Cuz I think I’m on a higher level when I goBut the music I be doing it, be losing it I'mma make it really tough for me to grow All I wanted was a family portrait See my baby’s on a ranch with horses But I was ********* devil ********** in corsets I was never really good, then I torched it I’m sorry Mrs. Jackson I’m speaking for real And I never meant to make your daughter cry But I guess I’m a failure with women I’m lost and I feel like I oughta die Feel like it, I’m rotting away, my life is jus’ off in the gray How much does it cost? I will pay to lay and be off in a coffin today I mean off in ashes, this life and after it clashes, if I get blasted This is suicide letters all over again, I thought that I passed it But I guess that I didn’t ‘cuz this one is written And there is no mending But I broke, I'mma a joke when I croakI jus’ hope that I won’t be descending But this ain’t a joke, I want you to know That Tech Nina is never pretending Alone in my bed with a gun to my head Asking, where is my happy ending? YeahTell me who it is? What about me? Where is my happy ending? What about me? Is this a life worth living? You know how it begins But how does it end for me? Will I ever live? Or does He have it in for me? Will this pop before I stop breathing? Is there light in this dark I’m seeing? Yeah, I put my life in this music, Nina is inside out I set my heart out for people, they know what the inside ‘bout Will they keep feeling Nina forever this? I doubtCan never cry for help so if you listening this my shout I’m searching for the passageway to happiness But I’m worldly so I have to lay in nastiness Yes this a strange year, worldwide fame’s near But the game's queer, sometime I feel like I’m rudolph the reindeer But instead of a red nose, I stay in my red clothes And the music, they said blows is on the top and the cred grows Can you resurrect a *********a that feel like he possess a dead soul? Deteriorates when inferior state, almost equal to bread mold? Now as my head goes, wish I could shed those Because all of the times the Nina was shorted when I bled froze So now that I’m cold blooded and hella sick Is what the med shows, the tred slows And don’t even think you reviving a dead rose, yeah Tell me who it is? What about me? Where is my happy ending? What about me? Is this a life worth living? You know how it begins But how does it end for me? Will I ever live? Or does he have it in for me? Will this pop before I stop breathing? Is there light in this dark I’m seeing? Listen, I’m on the verge of insanity but I’m competent I’m breaking, so I picked this one to vent The reason I look away when you talk to me My brain is producing evilness, I’m drowning in 151 and rum I meantThat’s how I feelI sit in the mirror with this gun and practice how to kill But I know damn well that the people like me Really wanna know how to chill This is life is ‘bout it, check ‘bout it[Incomprehensible] Think of all the love I lostBecause my quest is not a meal I feel like you, stupid, don’t talk to me I’m cracking up I don’t mean laughter, I’m full of bitterness and it’s backing up And I live with angels but lately demons been shacking up Tug of war with my spirits, see the blood I’m hacking up I love my kids and my fans, inside I sob harder‘ Cuz you paid the price for my life and it’s right like Bob Barker And I won’t pretend that it’s okay, I’m no facade starter So I guess my only happy ending is at a massage parlor, yeaa Tell me who it is? What about me? Where is my happy ending? What about me? Is this a life worth living? You know how it begins But how does it end for me? Will I ever live? Or does he have it in for me? Will this pop before I stop breathing? Is there light in this dark I’m seeing?