I have my dubious motives for my fatuous friends I have a need to be needed and feel superior again and I'd rather be shallow blind deaf and dumb I can't afford the risk of feeling anything but numb (oh no! - shhh! can you see me? can you see me? don't come too close to my exposure - I can't expose myself -not to anyone - do you hear me?- not to anyone) and I am such a coward and I am such a fake I like too keep my pulse down to soothe this beating ache (oh no! - shhh! can you see me? can you see me? don't come too close to my exposure - I can't expose myself -not to anyone - do you hear me?- not to anyone) I have my dubious motives for my fatuous friends I have a need to be needed and feel superior again and I'd rather be shallow blind deaf and dumb I can't afford the risk of feeling anything but numb