How long was I sleeping? what time is it now? Thursday? really? how long was I out? how long was that dream that I was thinking I was thinking was real how long has it been since I wanted to feel again and I so want to feel again I'm scarred I am so scarred I am so scarred and I will never be the same but that's alright as long as I can breathe and I can move and I can sleep at night in every dream I dream is you in everything I try to do in every way I want to be in who I think is me and how I want to be and I'm scared I am so scared I am so old I am so scarred I am so How long was I sleeping? what time is it now? Thursday? really? how long was I out? I am so scarred I am so skin and bone and heart is so old and tired I am so old so scarred