[00:00.431][Intro: Myalansky]
[00:02.730]Shit, sometimes man I just
[00:05.133]Get stressed out I be like damn yo
[00:07.327]I wanna go over here and smack a ***** up
[00:11.115]You know what I'm sayin'
[00:12.108]Crime Syndicate shit though *****s know us
[00:14.171]Know what I'm saying my peeps put me on
[00:16.078]For real ... shit's ****ed up yo
[00:19.526]You know what I'm saying religion's all good
[00:21.355]But where was heaven? Yo
[00:23.471][Verse 1: Myalansky]
[00:24.359]An ordinary cat from outta projects
[00:26.423]Since I was younger though
[00:27.964]Mom raised her children
[00:29.009]Pops dipped a long time ago
[00:30.968]In my mind I see flashbacks
[00:32.509]I had no fancy clothes
[00:33.737]Skinny, ugly, notty head ***** crying with snotty nose
[00:36.689]Even though my father neglect he paid the child support
[00:39.693]Hadn't seen him all these years, I hug his ass in court
[00:42.775]Always saying I'm coming to get you, and I be waiting to
[00:45.701]Holiday and birthday presents was never coming through
[00:48.731]'Member at the age 13, I started smoking weed
[00:51.683]Hangin' out wit cats that was older, I start to run the street
[00:54.687]Dropped outta high school, selling drugs, impressing chics
[00:57.744]Spent most my cheddar on gear
[00:59.468]My mans was buying whips
[01:00.591]New York, Jamaican, Miami *****s
[01:02.576]Flooded Virginia quick
[01:03.595]Co-signing work, only if buying
[01:05.293]Prices was high as shit
[01:06.651]'Member when I first got hit
[01:08.193]I seen the iron spit
[01:09.838]50 cats bendin' one corner, bleeding where pellet hit
[01:12.607]My man Shawn, he held on strong
[01:14.384]Slug burnt through his lower back side
[01:16.682]Cracked his spine, exit his arm
[01:18.276]Lost him twice on the hospital table
[01:20.392]And when he died, I cried my eyes out
[01:22.168]I couldn't take it (damn damn)
[01:24.493]But the same things continued to happen
[01:26.374]*****s got bust
[01:27.366]I'm a kid with a grown man's mind turning corrupt
[01:30.318]Playing innocent infront of my elders
[01:32.330]I was running with them cats that be robbing too
[01:35.282]I couldn't tell her
[01:36.405]If my name was up in any type trouble
[01:38.416]My moms would tell me
[01:40.114]Just like you brothers, into some shit, go get a job or something
[01:42.700]Just a little bum on the street
[01:44.320]Not working hard for nottin'
[01:45.704]Scratch I made whenever pumping
[01:47.481]I hit her off wit' something
[01:48.735]Making sure the crib stay tight
[01:50.197]For real I weren't no dummy
[01:51.608]Timmy where you gettin' this money
[01:53.620]By washin cars, be lying
[01:54.691]Saying anything 'sides drugs selling
[01:56.650]My sister seen me on the block
[01:58.348]Transact with fiends, saying I'ma tell it
[02:00.646]Growing up was hell no doubt
[02:02.475]I wonder where was heaven
[02:03.781][Interlude: Myalansky]
[02:04.669]For real though
[02:07.073]Always look for that place call heaven
[02:09.920]It's never there
[02:11.383]I seen my man's an' 'em gets.. just get blasted
[02:14.100]On the block
[02:15.171]Know what I'm saying?
[02:15.876]I go in the crib I got stains all over my shirt
[02:18.357]Know what I'm saying?
[02:19.768]And my mom's knew the type of shit I was going through
[02:22.851]Cause I was a project kid
[02:24.261][Verse 2: Myalansky]
[02:24.496]Now I'm a grown man
[02:25.437]Still It's like life dealt me the wrong hand
[02:27.474]Cat's that was my man be frontin'
[02:29.198]Or either found dead
[02:30.557]Sound sad, incarcerated, just turned a new dad
[02:33.404]Remembering them long ten months from slingin' crack bags
[02:36.460]Mom put me out with the quickness
[02:38.420]Carry your black ass
[02:39.647]I'm still coming back to the crib
[02:41.606]Oh so you back? Yeah
[02:42.651]Ma, I just came to holler at you, see how you doing
[02:45.316]Nothing's changed after all these years
[02:47.510]Still hustle for some gear
[02:49.156]Smoke weed, still drink beers
[02:51.089]I tell you from my heart
[02:52.630]Yo, times I'm like yeah
[02:53.988][Outro: Myalansky]
[02:54.563]I wonder if heaven has a place on this planet
[02:56.522]You'd find me right there
[03:07.233]Just a kid though
[03:08.904]All I wanna roll wit
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