[00:12.490]It's so hard to say, "I'm sorry," it's so hard to self reflect
[00:16.490]Make the world a better place, I'll put a ****** in my head
[00:19.190]I'm still runnin' outta friends, steady runnin' from the past
[00:22.490]Ain't no lil' piece of heaven, all these demons that I have
[00:25.490]I am broken, I am tired, I am lonely and depressed
[00:28.890]I am made up of mistakes, I'll start goin' down the list
[00:32.190]I'm a product of my father, I'm a addict like my sister
[00:35.190]I'm so sick, I need a doctor
[00:36.490]Spent some time in institutions back at home with my mama
[00:40.190]Had to run away to Houston
[00:41.490]Had a girl, she was a goddess, I ****ed up and had to lose her
[00:44.790]I see darkness all around me, put my soul into the music
[00:48.190]I am always ****in' doubting my every single movement
[00:51.190]I saw violence in my home, I seen shit I can't forget
[00:54.490]I got anxieties and tendencies and memories repressed
[00:57.790]Rip this shit up off my chest, put these niggas in a clip
[01:00.490]Press the muzzle to my face and pull the trigger, now I'm—
[01:04.490]It's so hard to end it all, I wanna try to make it right
[01:07.490]It's so hard to live at all, all these obstacles in life
[01:10.890]Make it hard for us all, made a ****-up of my life
[01:13.990]I'd give anything at all to take back a little time
[01:23.490]I'm a beast, I'm a dog, I'm a runaway slave
[01:26.490]I'm like Malcolm, I'm like Martin bein' locked in a cage
[01:30.190]Tell Jesus, "Come and save me, I got goals and a pager"
[01:33.490]Misdemeanors on the papers, El Dorados on the Daytons
[01:36.490]See me float above the pavement
[01:38.190]I'm a ****in' mental patient, that's my ****in' mission statement
[01:41.190]I've been sittin', waitin' patient
[01:42.990]I can hear what niggas sayin', send me curses, see me prayin'
[01:46.190]I could sell a blunt to Satan, all these trenches that I lay in
[01:49.490]All this chaos that I stay in, see my fate and know it's waitin'
[01:53.190]This a new beginning, call me Jesus, king of niggas
[01:56.190]My sermon is delivered, rollin' swishers, writin' scriptures
[01:58.890]Many pains and many issues, this my written crucifixion
[02:02.190]I'ma sing a song of David, I remember Wayne and Baby
[02:05.490]I done seen them niggas leakin'
[02:06.990]Screamin', "Jesus, come and save me"
[02:08.890]I don't know if I'ma make it, I just know that life ain't easy
[02:11.490]Gettin' harder while I'm breathin'
[02:13.490]N**gas die inside of Beamers, they don't even need a reason
[02:16.890]Guns clappin', get to squeezin'
[02:18.490]N**gas killin', it ain't easy
[02:20.190]Rent due and it ain't easy
[02:21.490]Call his name, but he ain't breathin'
[02:23.190]Mama cryin', it ain't easy
[02:24.890]Hard times, it ain't easy
[02:27.190]It ain't easy