I've been living with a secret, secret and I don't know if I can keep it, keep it and I know that if I leave it, leave it it's just gonna keep getting bigger it seems that life has got so hectic, hectic it's getting harder to protect it, tect it but I know that if I let it, let it it's just gonna keep getting bigger if she finds out I'm someone I don't wanna be if I let myself down I'll blame it on transparency if I let them down gently maybe they'll admire me 'cause if everyone loves me it might ease my anxiety it seems my honour is forsaken, saken it seems my friends have started hating, hating all my nervous system's shaking, shaking it's just gonna keep getting bigger I'm a criminal in hiding, hiding and you're the father I confide in, fide in there's a shadow that's been rising, rising it's just gonna keep getting bigger if she finds out I'm someone I don't wanna be if I let myself down I'll blame it on transparency if I let them down gently maybe they'll admire me 'cause if everyone loves me it might ease my anxiety if she finds out I'm someone I don't wanna be if I let myself down I'll blame it on transparency if I let them down gently maybe they'll admire me 'cause if everyone loves me it might ease my anxiety