[00:02.232]When I was a little girl
[00:06.759]Like really little - like eight or so
[00:10.489]I was playing in my father's study
[00:14.735]A place in the house I wasn't supposed to go
[00:18.984]My father fancied himself a sailor
[00:23.496]His study was filled with nautical decor
[00:26.960]He kept a boat in a bottle on the top of a shelf
[00:31.472]And it shattered on the ground when I slammed the door
[00:34.409]I told my mother everything
[00:37.863]I told her I was so so sorry
[00:42.116]She told me "don't cry
[00:44.224]When he comes home tonight
[00:46.133]We can make everything okay
[00:50.378]This is all we have to say:
[00:54.626]We don't remember a boat in a bottle
[00:58.620]It must have fallen off its shelf alone
[01:03.344]We know you loved it
[01:04.148]We're so sad it's broken
[01:07.062]But neither one of us was even home
[01:10.014]And it's our word yes, our word, against his"
[01:17.453]So I hid screwups from my father
[01:21.453]Made up school awards to please my mom
[01:25.708]Whatever made the steak taste better
[01:29.950]Whatever kept the waters calm
[01:34.209]I was told to keep their secrets
[01:38.213]And in turn they'd keep mine
[01:42.450]As I got older, I got dumber
[01:46.442]I couldn't help but cross the line
[01:49.627]Three times I nearly wrecked my life
[01:53.103]Three times I nearly came to ruin
[01:57.101]Three times went crying
[01:59.223]To my parents
[02:01.338]Who said they'd make it go away
[02:05.591]Yes, this is all we had to say:
[02:09.847]"we never rented a house in sedona
[02:13.837]We didn't see camille the day she died
[02:18.078]We haven't been on our boat in some years now
[02:22.070]So we don't care what you found inside
[02:25.262]And it's our word yes, our word
[02:30.030]It's our word yes, our word against theirs."
[02:44.071]Somebody was paid to make it go away
[02:52.293]Everyone was paid to make the problems go away
[03:00.535]Doesn't matter who gets screwed or who is blamed
[03:05.321]Or what you need to do to clear your name
[03:09.855]An inconvenient truth can be easily erased
[03:20.514]When I was twenty-six
[03:25.033]I was living in new york
[03:29.016]I developed some fun habits
[03:33.266]Put my white blood cells to work
[03:37.513]I remember it so clearly
[03:41.487]I was home alone on a tuesday night
[03:45.747]To level out I popped some downers
[03:49.727]But couldn't seem to get my mind right
[03:53.973]I drew a bath, and slipped into it
[03:57.705]And suddenly became aware
[04:02.230]I couldn't keep my head above water
[04:06.146]I took a final gasp of air
[04:09.604]And as I lay there helplessly
[04:13.057]A million different thoughts came to me
[04:17.305]I saw my parents
[04:19.177]Hearing the news
[04:21.030]"your only daughter drowned today"
[04:25.547]I thought about what they might say
[04:29.528]"our daughter Judith?
[04:30.860]No she moved to austin
[04:33.787]She's very happy there
[04:35.120]Or so we hear
[04:37.805]She's always been so goddamned independent
[04:42.064]The years go by and now we barely see her
[04:46.311]Our daughter Judith? you must be mistaken
[04:50.557]You mean the girl we raised as if our own?
[04:54.532]We loved her so much
[04:56.141]She felt like our child
[04:58.787]But eventually we had to send her home"
[05:01.972]It'd be their word
[05:04.103]Only their word
[05:06.235]It'd be their word
[05:08.612]Only their word
[05:13.405]On its own