[00:00.00] 作词 : Sean George
[00:00.49] 作曲 : Sean George
[00:00.99][Intro]
[00:01.20]This is for everybody out there... whoever ****ed up their life
[00:07.68]Or had someone close do it for 'em
[00:09.36][Verse 1]
[00:11.13]My 3-year-old son says he wants to go to mommy's
[00:13.68]It's heartbreaking, she's been doing dope and roxies
[00:16.38]I know it's too much for him to understand
[00:18.45]That she let drugs get the upper hand, ****ing up his plans
[00:21.75]I know he loves her but I don't trust her
[00:23.79]Enough to leave him alone in a home with his own mother
[00:27.06]Oh brother, it's bad enough my child support is turning
[00:29.79]Into powder on the counter she's about to snort
[00:32.31]Now I'm out in court fighting over custody
[00:34.62]Luckily, the judge can see it's all about my son for me
[00:37.62]Well luckily, they agreed, handed me the orders
[00:40.08]Same court I dropped 12 G's in to see my daughter
[00:43.02]A lot's happened since she moved away in '05
[00:45.24]Her spiteful ass mom, homie believes her own lies
[00:48.15]Her jealous husband calls my cell like I'ma tell my cousins
[00:50.85]Out in Yonkers cuz where you live got me really buggin'
[00:53.55]Detect the sarcasm, I don't even bark at 'em but if I think
[00:56.55]About the situation then my heart spasms
[00:58.89]My daughter probably thinks her father doesn't care, 'cuz I wasn't there, and it seems like her brother's taking up her share
[01:04.41]Plus I'm here with this good girl, she's so great
[01:06.66]She lies to me saying, "Baby it'll be okay!"
[01:09.54]There's no way it's okay I spent the whole day stressin' 'cuz my son's sick, and I can't afford to co-pay
[01:14.58][Hook x2]
[01:15.12]This is how my thoughts move and collide to live with the shit I do to survive
[01:20.37]Moving through all the rumors and lies, I'm just trying to find the truth in disguise
[01:26.94][Verse 2]
[01:36.45]Folks say I should keep the faith, believe in god, but
[01:38.85]God doesn't answer when I'm praying for a decent job
[01:41.73]It's even harder watching people make a killin' while I stood by
[01:45.09]A good guy, forced to play the villian
[01:47.01]They say the way I'm feelin' actually defines you, plus the way you persevere is why they get behind you
[01:52.29]Rumor has it Babygrande wants to sign you, that's crazy
[01:55.20]Chuck's a shady ****, you've being lied to
[01:57.69]I was forced to take my Viper deal and re-work it, 'cuz me losing an old friend to business didn't seem worth it
[02:03.09]From the outside looking in, it seems perfect, when in fact, rap
[02:06.30]Made my life a three-ring circus
[02:08.31]Like I said I got a new girl, who leads her life responsibly
[02:11.40]Her philosophy's that it'll be 'aight
[02:13.65]Somehow I feel the need to fight, scream and hipe
[02:16.02]Probably because I think I'm the piece of shit that I treat her like
[02:19.02]I need advice, call tabs, weave 'em tight, Jesus Christ
[02:22.05]I hope he calls back before I fall flat
[02:24.24]And Sean snaps, 'cuz he don't get enough sleep, it seems
[02:27.00]Attention runs deep and eats at him like lunch meat
[02:29.61]Leading him to believe the end is complete, and his
[02:32.10]Heart breaks, and doesn't mean he keeps the tempo up beat
[02:34.95]It just means that unleash a beast is left to unleash
[02:37.20]A shootin' spree, 'cuz as you see, it's been a rough week
[02:40.29][Hook x2]
[02:40.47]This is how my thoughts move and collide to live with the shit I do to survive
[02:45.63]Moving through all the rumors and lies, I'm just trying to find the truth in disguise