I can't remember smiles on Christmas day
And even if I smile it wasn't real anyway
What I do recall is laying in the snow
And wishing I didn't have to go home 
I know this isn't what you want to hear
But I'm not looking forward to Christmas this year
So I sleep on it, and dream on it
And hope to find the reason on this day
That I can breakaway
And start over, but I'm not so sure
That this one will be different than the last
And I can leave all of those winters in the past
I can always tell it's coming by the way
Silence winds are growing colder everyday
And I could hear the freezing hands of time 
Slowing down as people pass me by
And I know this isn't what they want to hear
But I'm not looking forward to Christmas this year
So I sleep on it, and dream on it
And hope to find the reason on this day
That I can breakaway
And start over, but I'm not so sure
That this one will be different than the last
And I can leave all of those winters in the past
So I sleep on it, and dream on it
And hope to find the reason on this day
That I can breakaway
And start over, but I'm not so sure
That this one will be different than the last
And I can leave all of those winters in the past