[00:15.45]My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast
[00:17.83]Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past
[00:19.45]The last mistake, the choice I made
[00:21.14]Staring in the mirror with myself to blame
[00:22.76]Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside
[00:24.42]Nowhere to hide inside my mind
[00:26.17]I'm scared that you'll compare and
[00:27.79]I'll look a lifetime past repair
[00:29.11]
[00:29.73]I second guess myself to death,
[00:31.04]
[00:31.61]I re-solicit every step
[00:32.48]
[00:33.42]What if my words are meaningless?
[00:35.47]What if my heart's misleading this?
[00:37.03]I try to capture every moment as it comes to me
[00:40.28]Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company
[00:44.02]
[00:49.97]When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
[00:56.40]
[00:57.22]I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
[01:03.28]
[01:04.28]And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
[01:10.53]
[01:12.53]I will not be giving in tonight
[01:20.22]
[01:21.22]When I'm old and grey, or thirty,
[01:23.34]or whatever happens first,
[01:24.53]I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse
[01:27.16]
[01:28.34]Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself
[01:31.22]
[01:31.72]Like never let you get a word in,
[01:33.72]while I dissect my mental health
[01:35.71]Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track
[01:37.96]I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac
[01:40.46]
[01:42.58]Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves
[01:46.34]Trade up made up epidemics,
[01:48.22]pass around prescription pills
[01:49.16]
[01:49.78]But my disorder can't be cured
[01:51.60]by a bottle, blade, or dose
[01:53.16]Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close
[01:55.72]
[01:56.79]But I don't wanna let you see that,
[01:58.79]I don't want my friends to know
[02:00.54]Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go
[02:03.57]
[02:04.82]When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
[02:10.01]
[02:10.63]I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
[02:17.71]And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
[02:24.29]
[02:25.79]I will not be giving in tonight
[02:33.54]Try as I might to keep it together
[02:35.60]
[02:36.48]Why is recovery taking forever
[02:39.35]
[02:39.92]Fool the whole world, just until I get better
[02:43.10]
[02:43.60]I'm terrified I'll be faking forever
[02:46.42]
[02:47.73]On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head
[02:51.73]
[02:52.54]I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did
[02:56.11]All the pain I can't explain away won't fade
[02:58.92]
[02:59.67]All the the secrets silenced by the shame
[03:02.92]Don't make me say it
[03:04.17]Don't make me say it
[03:06.26]
[03:19.45]When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
[03:22.02]
[03:24.02]I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
[03:30.14]
[03:31.39]And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
[03:37.83]
[03:39.21]I will not be giving in tonight