Dear Slim, I wrote but you still ain't calling I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not-a got 'em There probably was a problem at the post office or something Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em But anyways; fuck it, what's been up? Man how's your daughter My girlfriend's pregnant too, I'm bout to be a father If I have a daughter, guess what I'ma call her I'ma name her Bonnie I read about your Uncle Ronnie too I'm sorry I had a friend kill himself over some bitch who didn't want him I know you probably hear this everyday, but I'm your biggest fan I even got the underground shit that you did with Skam I got a room full of your posters and your pictures man I like the shit you did with Rawkus too, that shit was fat Anyways, I hope you get this man, hit me back Just to chat, truly yours, your biggest fan，This is Stan This is my life This is my life that I used waste minute This is my life This is my life that I used waste minute Dear Slim you still ain't called or wrote I hope you have a chance I ain't mad - I just think it's FUCKED UP you don't answer fans If you didn't wanna talk to me outside your concert You didn't have to but you coulda signed an autograph for Matthew That's my little brother man he's only six years old We waited in the blistering cold for you Four hours and you just said No That's pretty shitty man - you're like his fuckin idol He wants to be just like you man he likes you more than I do I ain't that mad though I just don't like bein lied to Remember when we met in Denver - you said if I'd write you You would write back - see I'm just like you in a way I never knew my father neither He used to always cheat on my mom and beat her I can relate to what you're saying in your songs So when I have a shitty day I drift away and put 'em on Cause I don't really got shit else so that shit helps when I'm depressed I even got a tattoo of your name across the chest Sometimes I even cut myself to see how much it bleeds It's like adrenaline the pain is such a sudden rush for me See everything you say is real and I respect you cause you tell it My girlfriend's jealous cause I talk about you 24/7 But she don't know you like I know you Slim no one does She don't know what it was like for people like us growin up You gotta call me man I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose Sincerely yours Stan -- P S We should be together too This is my life This is my life that I used waste minute This is my life This is my life that I used waste minute Dear Stan I meant to write you sooner but I just been busy You said your girlfriend's pregnant now how far along is she Look I'm really flattered you would call your daughter that And here's an autograph for your brother I wrote it on the Starter cap I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show I musta missed you Don't think I did that shit intentionally just to diss you But what's this shit you said about you like to cut your wrists too I say that shit just clowning dogg C'mon - how fucked up is you You got some issues Stan I think you need some counseling To help your ass from bouncing off the walls when you get down some And what's this shit about us meant to be together That type of shit'll make me not want us to meet each other I really think you and your girlfriend need each other Or maybe you just need to treat her better I hope you get to read this letter I just hope it reaches you in time Before you hurt yourself I think that you'll be doin just fine If you relax a little I'm glad I inspire you but Stan Why are you so mad Try to understand that I do want you as a fan I just don't want you to do some crazy shit I seen this one shit on the news a couple weeks ago that made me sick Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge And had his girlfriend in the trunk and she was pregnant with his kid And in the car they found a tape but they didn't say who it was to Come to think about his name was it was you This is my life This is my life that I used waste minute This is my life This is my life that I used waste minute