[00:00.000]Mom, I know I let you down
[00:17.350]And though you say the days are happy
[00:21.680]Why is the power off, and I'm ******* up?
[00:25.380]And mom, I know he's not around
[00:30.680]But don't you place the blame on me
[00:34.430]As you pour yourself another drink
[00:38.420]I guess we are who we are
[00:43.900]Headlights *******ning in the dark night I drive on
[00:50.790]Maybe we took this too far
[00:58.200]I went in headfirst
[00:59.940]Never thinking about who what I said hurt, in what verse
[01:03.030]My mom probably got it the worst
[01:04.820]The brunt of it, but as stubborn as we are
[01:07.120]Did I take it too far?
[01:08.320]Cleaning out my closet and all them other songs
[01:10.460]But regardless I don't hate you cause ma!
[01:12.150]You're still beautiful to me, cause you're my mom
[01:15.200]Though far be it for you to be calling, my house was Vietnam
[01:18.130]Desert Storm and both of us put together can form an atomic bomb equivalent to Chemical warfare
[01:21.980]And forever we can drag this on and on
[01:25.510]But, agree to disagree
[01:26.820]That gift from me up under the Chris*******as tree don't mean *******t to me
[01:30.500]You're kicking me out? It's 15 degrees and it's Chris*******as Eve (little ******* just leave)
[01:33.900]Ma, let me grab my ******* coat, anything to have each other's goats
[01:36.980]Why we always at each others throats? Especially when dad, he ******* us both
[01:40.160]We're in the same ******* boat, you'd think that it'd make us close (nope)
[01:43.810]Further away that drove us, but together headlights *******ne, a car full of belongings
[01:47.850]Still got a ways to go, back to grandma's house it's straight up the road
[01:51.430]And I was the man of the house, the oldest, so my shoulders carried the weight of the load
[01:54.880]Then Nate got taken away by the state at 8 years old, and
[01:58.370]That's when I realized you were sick and it wasn't fixable or changable
[02:01.560]And to this day we remained estranged and I hate it though, but
[02:05.360]I guess we are who we are
[02:09.400]Headlights *******ning in the dark night I drive on
[02:16.790]Maybe we took this too far
[02:24.380]Cause to this day we remain estranged and I hate it though
[02:28.120]Cause you ain't even get to witness your grand baby's growth
[02:31.510]But I'm sorry mama for Cleaning Out My Closet, at the time I was angry
[02:35.200]Rightfully maybe so, never meant that far to take it though, cause
[02:38.390]Now I know it's not your fault, and I'm not making jokes
[02:41.330]That song I no longer play at shows and I cringe every time it's on the radio
[02:44.960]And I think of Nathan being placed in a home
[02:47.900]And all the medicine you fed us
[02:49.600]And how I just wanted you to taste your own, but
[02:51.860]Now the medications taken over and your mental states deteriorating slow
[02:56.190]And I'm way too old to cry, that *******t's painful though
[02:59.129]But ma, I forgive you, so does Nathan yo
[03:01.420]All you did, all you said, you did your best to raise us both
[03:04.760]Foster care, that cross you bare, few may be as heavy as yours
[03:08.010]But I love you Debbie Mathers, oh what a tangled web we have, cause
[03:11.560]One thing I never asked was where the ******* my deadbeat dad was
[03:14.700]******* it I guess he had trouble keeping up with every address
[03:18.050]But I'd have flipped every mattress, every rock and desert cactus
[03:21.429]Own a collection of maps and followed my kids to the edge of the atlas
[03:24.880]Someone ever moved them from me? That you could bet your ass's
[03:27.970]If I had to come down the chimney dressed as Santa, kidnap them
[03:31.300]And although one has met their grandma
[03:33.560]Once you pulled up in our drive one night as we were leaving to get some handburgers
[03:37.640]Me, her and Nate, we introduced you, hugged you
[03:40.740]And as you left I had this overwhelming sadness come over me
[03:44.560]As we pulled off to go our separate paths, and
[03:47.350]I saw your headlights as I looked back
[03:49.600]And I'm mad I didn't get the chance to thank you for being my Mom and my Dad
[03:53.790]So Mom, please accept this as a tribute I wrote this on the jet
[03:57.040]I guess I had to get this off my chest, I hope I get the chance to lay it before I'm dead
[04:01.700]The stewardess said to fasten my seatbelt, I guess we're cra*******ng
[04:04.350]So if I'm not dreaming, I hope you this message that I'll always love you from afar
[04:10.700]Cause you're my mama...
[04:11.560]I guess we are who we are
[04:14.960]Headlights *******ning in the dark night I drive on
[04:22.729]Maybe we took this too far
[04:29.260]I want a new life
[04:31.100]One without a cause
[04:34.900]So I'm coming home tonight
[04:37.730]Well no matter what the cost
[04:41.080]And if the plane goes down
[04:44.309]And if the crew can't wake me up
[04:47.350]Just know that I was alright
[04:50.900]And I was not afraid to die
[04:54.150]Even if there's songs to sing
[04:58.040]My children will carry me
[05:00.970]Just know that I'm alright
[05:03.920]I was not afraid to die
[05:07.260]Because I put my faith in my little girl
[05:11.040]So I never say goodbye cruel world
[05:14.500]Just know that I'm alright
[05:16.990]I am not afraid to die
[05:21.330]I guess we are who we are
[05:26.850]Headlights *******ning in the dark night I drive on
[05:35.200]Maybe we took this too far
[05:40.030]I want a new life