[00:05.87]It's a terrible statement but I never let it leave my side.
[00:09.55]That sickening realization that I'm done with this fight.
[00:13.77]Moments kneeling on the bedroom floor
[00:15.79]sickened by the entity I had absorbed no more.
[00:20.35]I would not let the self-scrutinizing endeavor
[00:23.37]endure a precipice a monologue questioning my every motive.
[00:28.28]My disaster stricken heart feeling broken,
[00:31.78]my emotions quoted spilling out of a broken vase
[00:36.33]taking the place of what was once your emotion.
[00:41.38]Diluted with tears, an open book scribbled with fears
[00:44.32]engraved pools of ink I'm vocally shook;
[00:49.83]and I'm tired of telling myself that it's gonna change.
[00:55.75]Taken by the spectacular lie that existence can end.
[01:01.36]Faulse-hoods predicted my sinners dictated my every decision.
[01:06.99]
[01:07.69]An exit of sorts seemed logical,
[01:10.23]cause I thought I could silence this breath.
[01:13.73]But contrary to my mindset,
[01:17.45]I circumvented my threats to silence
[01:20.57]the demons singing songs in my head;
[01:24.97]whispering in my ear, that ending it all is a safe bet.
[01:30.94]
[01:32.40]Comforting me as I try to manipulate my end.
[01:37.20]Those moments when I decided I couldn't handle this anymore!
[01:41.95]Pins and needles infected every sensation I had left!
[01:48.23]Feeling like this love I had once found had been torn open
[01:52.48]and left broken in the cold
[01:57.94]-that the seams holding it together ripped open
[02:01.74]and my flesh tore open with that is I pray that my breathing would stop.
[02:09.83]And as I held those staining memories, I held on so tightly;
[02:13.98]remembering what life used to mean.
[02:17.07]Selfishly ready to embrace the fact that I am weak!
[02:28.51]
[02:28.66]But then I called to you, and I hoped someone would find me;
[02:37.06]and I found you, and I had hoped someone would call me!
[02:45.30]Cause I'm listening to these echoes of my own voice
[02:48.83]leaving damage in the cold,
[02:50.76]as I feel I have finally grown to the point where I can snap.
[02:58.24]A point of knowing I could never go back...
[03:03.06]And it's in the moments I felt most alone.
[03:07.51]That I told myself no one was there for me;
[03:13.17]and little did I know,
[03:16.01]love with sitting right beside me, I just wasn't listening.
[03:23.03]At this point in my life I don't know many things,
[03:27.13]but I can promise you this - You are loved completely.