[00:28.26]I let intentions hold more power than actions
[00:31.69]and that's why I fall asleep alone
[00:35.43]I sit here idly finding timely
[00:37.45]spacing and phrasing while writing and scribbling
[00:40.19]words of watered down angst and heartbreak
[00:42.31]while my spirit runs wildly
[00:45.44]How I envy my free spirit
[00:48.63]And how I envy what I was supposed to be
[00:52.41]My heart inhabiting life's snaking lucid dreams
[00:55.55]liquid ambitions secret fiction and other seamless things
[00:59.35]packed in stitch packed in a propaganda to sell my friends
[01:02.74]on the statement that life holds meaning
[01:05.63]And I can write about the life I'm living
[01:07.54]but most often it feels like I'm just writing
[01:11.44]not living
[01:14.98]
[01:17.40]But that's never stopped me before
[01:24.03]That's never stopped me before so I continue writing
[01:28.09]and seeing that after love and learning so many things I never wanted to know
[01:33.15]And now I'm a self-taught professional at letting go
[01:36.83]Accepting that only black and white in life
[01:40.18]is now grapevines wrapping around my mind
[01:43.02]And numbing me into falling into falling in love,
[01:45.29]A sacred bond now a cultural joke
[01:50.19]Still trying to live but functioning enough to keep pushing
[01:53.43]I wish I could finally inhale and exhale freely
[01:56.92]but sometimes I need to choke
[01:59.40]I need to be reminded that this is not another formulated system
[02:03.49]I've come upon in order to feel accepted
[02:07.18]Or maybe it is
[02:08.15]
[02:10.87]Because I've become pretty good at keeping my demons at bay
[02:14.65]And I always tell myself I got them to go away
[02:17.64]But every time I move on to a new point in my life
[02:20.58]I want them to stay
[02:23.20]And everyday I'll invite them into my home stupidly
[02:26.57]just so I don't feel so alone
[02:30.50]Cause now I'm drowning
[02:33.65]Hoping somebody comes by
[02:37.58]Or sees me as something worth saving
[02:43.90]And the interesting thing about falling in love
[02:46.89]is that sometimes moving on keeps me from moving forward
[02:52.85]I found out I'm not so grave
[02:55.63]And I wanted to say this to your face but my pride scared me away
[03:03.52]So just promise me you'll tell me you love me
[03:06.81]Even if you're lying
[03:09.08]Because it's all I wanna hear
[03:11.71]So just promise me you'll tell me you love me
[03:14.49]Even if you're lying
[03:16.71]Because it's all I wanna hear
[03:20.81]Promise me you'll tell me you love me
[03:24.40]Because I love you,
[03:26.12]my dear
[03:28.94]And I know it's petty
[03:31.83]I know it's petty
[03:33.45]But then again, so were we.