[00:25.07]I will stay calm and collected but just for a moment
[00:30.23]I have forsaken my motions and now feel broken
[00:33.32]caught in a radical state feeling progressive in a way
[00:36.80]but emptied of all structure
[00:38.57]I feel like my life has been stripped away
[00:40.84]sometimes when I close my eyes
[00:42.52]I see myself as an empty cathedral
[00:45.05]and I can't help but yeild those
[00:47.17]those lackluster vehicles tiny engines
[00:49.69]that encourage my deepening state of confusion
[00:52.82]without her to hold I feel like
[00:54.95]I can't keep control over my original visions
[00:57.99]I've seen the cinematic adaptation of broken relations
[01:01.68]but first hand experiences the only way
[01:03.85]to understand the emotions that come with it
[01:06.78]those moment of wishing things were different
[01:09.00]cliche it may seem but I feel like it needs to be evaluated
[01:12.95]those forgotten messages I whispered under my breathe
[01:16.08]everytime I thought about the future I wanted to possess
[01:20.13]then those dark reminiscent nights lost in thought
[01:23.41]when questions not answers is all I got
[01:26.25]was it something I said?
[01:28.16]if not I promise it will be because I'm not givin up yet
[01:33.12]I try not to speak from the heart but from my head
[01:35.71]but todays an exception and my words were reflected
[01:38.79]my lungs hurt from inhaling the past
[01:41.52]I feel like a ship with a broken mast following a north star,
[01:44.85]a course far, a horse par
[01:46.68]that never wanted to meet a path I never wanted to seek
[01:49.82]desiring to be free
[01:51.08]desiring to forget the memories floating off behind me
[01:53.61]but still somehow hoping this is all a terrible dream
[01:57.05]and things will go back to how I thought they were meant to be
[02:00.13]I'm a monster to my own philosophies basing my happiness off
[02:03.85]of anything I can grasp that wont kill me
[02:06.44]just so I can feel something
[02:07.96]just so this pain can mean something
[02:10.11]maybe not to me at least to somebody
[02:13.09]and when I leave this present darkness
[02:15.02]and harness enough self respect to move out
[02:17.14]out of the stickening wall between acceptance and reluctant help
[02:22.00]so please remove this fleeting need to feel her touch against my flesh
[02:26.39]and replenish that ambition I once had to seek authentic love again
[02:32.30]because as long as we keep dreaming
[02:34.03]our hearts continue beating and love will find us
[02:39.65]even if we're sleeping