I wish I could take it back

The way I left you then

I flooded the tanks and ran

Phantasms at force ten

I dropped like a knife

For years I just scraped by

Curled up

Bow down

Half blind

Don't know where you are

But sometimes a depth charge

Stirs my

Ancient sonar

As fast as I dared to drive

The icy roads

Ghost white

Rose up from the river bed

Your long dead star

Reeled me in

The glittering lights

And faces I crept by

Eyes wide

Skipped and stuttered

I'd surfaced behind a melting projection

Banks where

Flags once fluttered

It's like the more dead reckonings I take

The more I fail to see

That in this life of mine

You're lost to me