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[00:01.16]This is exactly what I wanted
[00:02.46]All my fans love me
[00:04.35]Dad is proud of me
[00:05.69]Momma cries for me
[00:07.03]Cause she know there ain't sleep in my schedule
[00:09.84]Having nightmares that I'm the black Heath Ledger
[00:12.84]Sleep when I'm dead
[00:14.36]These voices in my head
[00:15.87]Got me waking up at 4 just so I can write instead
[00:18.66]And my friends come and ask me if it's worth it
[00:21.32]I tell them that it better be,
[00:22.85]I did this shit on purpose
[00:24.14]The worst is being worthless
[00:25.78]Now a nigga priceless
[00:27.30]Bloomingdales coat, I don't have to check the prices
[00:29.96]But I only go to feel a sense of control
[00:32.68]Cause I get this shit for free if I wear promotional
[00:35.64]And I'm not emotional
[00:37.43]When I do my work
[00:38.96]I get emotional when I order that dessert
[00:41.88]Cause she always ate dessert
[00:43.42]And I deserted her
[00:44.98]But I refuse to compromise career for a girl
[00:47.88]Cause this music and this writing and this acting is my soul
[00:50.82]And if I let it go, there'd be no one left to know
[00:53.48]Being happy is the goal, but greatness is my vision
[00:56.97]And all these girls are thinking they compete with my ambition
[01:00.01]But baby I am different
[01:01.41]This shit is my life
[01:02.90]And if you don't believe me, you can never be wife
[01:05.59]I'm walking in this darkness and I'm tryna find a light
[01:08.94]And I'd rather die than be average and chances are I might,
[01:11.94]Because:
[01:13.07]Things are changing, my life's gone pecans
[01:16.06]Thirteen cities in the last eight weekends
[01:18.95]All I know is baby I'm so tired
[01:23.69]Record on Monday,
[01:26.48]Tape on Tuesday,
[01:27.98]I ain't slowing down I don't care what you say
[01:30.92]Fuck this health thing, Momma I'm alright
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