The first time I saw her
Everything in my head went quiet.
All the tics, all the constantly refreshing images
just disappeared

When you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
You don’t really get quiet moments.
Even in bed, I’m thinking:
Did I lock the doors? Yes.Did I wash my hands? Yes.
Did I lock the doors? Yes.Did I wash my hands? Yes.
But when I saw her,
the only thing I could think about was the hairpin curve of her lips
Or the eyelash on her cheek
The eyelash on her cheek
The eyelash on her cheek.

I knew I had to talk to her.
I asked her out six times in thirty seconds.
She said yes after the 3rd one,
But none of them felt right,
So I had to keep going.

On our first date
I spent more time organizing my meal by color than I did eating it
or talking to her

But she loved it

She loved that I had to kiss her goodbye sixteen times or
twenty-four times if it was Wednesday
She loved that it took me forever to walk home
Because there are lots of cracks on our sidewalk

When we moved in together, she said she felt safe
like no one would ever rob us because
I definitely locked the door eighteen times

She close her eyes
And imagine days and nights what passing infact.

When she said she loved me
Her mouth was a straight line.

She told me that I was taking up too much of her time.

Last week she started sleeping at her mother’s place.
She told me that she shouldn’t have let me get so attached to her
that this whole thing was a mistake

But how can it be a mistake that I don’t have to wash my hands
after I touched her?

Love is not a mistake

It’s killing me
that she can run away from this and I just can’t.

I can’tgo out and find someone new because I always think of her.
Usually, when I obsess over things
I see germs sneaking into my skin.

I see myself crushed by an endless succession of cars.
And she was the first beautiful thing I ever got stuck on

I want to wake up every morning
Thinking about the way she holds her steering wheel
How she turns shower knobs like she's opening a safe
How she blows out candles
Blows out candles
Blows out candles
Blows out candles
Blows out candles
Blows out the candles.blows out…

Now, I just think about who else is kissing her.
I can’t breathe because he only kisses her once
He doesn’t care if it’s perfect!

I want her back, So Bad!

I leave the door unlocked.

I leave the lights on.

Change,right

When I be imagined to change two things
Listen and speak up