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In the dark |
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waiting with loathing |
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and dread |
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she is coming |
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alerted by my self-pity |
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she is a child |
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frozen in her pain |
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I can never be free of her |
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and never she of me |
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sometimes she comes |
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when I'm trying to know love |
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she torments me |
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and tells me |
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I am not worthy |
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she is almost here |
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I can't bear to be |
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used by her to take revenge |
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on all who come too near |
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for fear that they might |
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make me whole |
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and her fade away |
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In my youth |
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she and I were one |
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through ridicule and hate |
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I was torn from myself |
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She is here |
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Childhood's wretched slave |
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can never be led to freedom |
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Is hatred's hungry child |
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asleep within all our reason? |