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To be honest I didn’t even want to make this |
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I knew the topic I would talk about was frowned upon |
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And heavily debated |
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Everybody thinks I’m happy but I’m not |
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And this here is my confession |
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How I let a girl destroy me |
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And then push me to the point of this depression |
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Ya I’m talking about that do or die |
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Ya I’m talking bout that suicide |
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Got all these cars man but who gon' ride? |
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****** my friend a couple times |
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Told me all those ******* lies |
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So I wrote a song so you could find out how I felt inside |
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I swear to God I almost shot myself a couple times |
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I should be dead |
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So I had a talk with God and he told me |
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I’d be hard so I asked if I could stay |
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And he could take you instead |
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Remember all the s**t that you was telling me? |
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How you loved me and want nobody above me |
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Now it’s funny all the s**t |
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That you promised is just a memory |
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You gave me something to believe in |
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Then you broke me into pieces |
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And it’s ******* with me mentally |
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And I can’t trust no other ***** |
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Because I’m starting to see woman as the enemy |
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I saw you texting with the dude and it was cool |
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Because you told me you and him were just friends |
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Then I caught you in the bed, let it slide, |
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Took you back, and then you went |
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And ****** the same dumb ***** again |
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What the **** *****? I gave my heart to you |
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There’s a kid that no ones knows about and me |
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And you both know I am the father too |
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That means I am apart of you, |
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You went and broke my heart in two |
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Then stabbed me in the back |
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And watched me bleed and pulled an audible |
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****! How you think this gon' end? |
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Cause I been dealing with depression, |
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Social media attention |
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They expect me to be happy but I’m ******* depressed |
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I swear I’m ******* depressed |
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All the money in the world don’t mean a thing |
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If you can’t share it with somebody |
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That you love and that you ******* respect |
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Do you know how it feels to be awake |
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But all you want to do is go back to sleep? |
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Because reality is suffocating pushing on your chest |
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So all you want to do is go |
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And live your life in your dreams? |
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Do you know how it feels when the person |
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That you love doesn’t love you back? |
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When they say the right things |
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But their actions are opposite of everything |
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They tell you everyday to relax? |
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***** I would've killed for you! |
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Man **** all of this music s**t |
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I’d pass up on a deal for you! |
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Other ****** tried to ****, |
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I swear I only saw the real in you! |
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You cheated twice and now I can’t deal with you! |
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It’s Dax |
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Dear God |
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I asked that you give me the strength, to trust again |
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Please help me relieve this burden from my heart |
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I know time heals all wounds |
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And some just take longer than others |
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So I'm going to trust you with this process |
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Amen |
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Everybody put your hands up if you can relate |
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We all been there, this is for you |