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You hadn't seen your father in such a long time |
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He died in the arms of his lover how dare he |
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Your mother never left the house |
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She never married anyone else you took it upon yourself to console her |
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You reminded her so much of your father |
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So you were banished and you wonder why you're so hypersensitive |
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And why you can't trust anyone but us but then how can I begin |
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To forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty water |
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She was foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me |
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I don't know where to begin in all of my 50 odd years |
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I have been silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring |
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Who are you younger generation to tell me |
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That I have unresolved problems not many examples of fruits |
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Of this type of excruciating labor |
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How can you just throw words around like grieve and heal and mourn |
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I feel fine we may not have been born as awake as you were |
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It was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphill both ways |
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We went from school to a job to a wife to instant parenthood |
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I walked into his office I felt so self-conscious on the couch |
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He was sitting down across from me he was writing down |
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His hypothesis I don't know I've got a loving supportive wife |
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Who doesn't know how involved she should get |
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You say his interjecting was him just calling me on my sh*t |
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Just the other day my sweet daughter I was driving past 203 |
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I walked up the stairs in my mind's eye |
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I remember how they would creak loudly |
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She was only responsive with a drink he was only responsive by photo |
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I was only trying to be the best big brother I could |
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I've walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide |
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Sometimes indignant sometimes raw can you imagine |
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I pay him 75 dollars an hour sometimes it feels like highway robbery |
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And sometimes it's peanuts I wish it could last a couple more hours |
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So here we both are battling similar demons not coincidentally |
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You seen getting beyond knowing it solely intellectually |
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You're not relinquishing your majesty |
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You are wise you are warm you are courageous you are big |
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And I love you more now than I ever have in my whole life |