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Father and mother divorced as I began the school in hamilton |
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We had the same problem every night with daddy's addiction |
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Violence and drunkeness reigned his every day and made us down |
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I felt really distraught as he finally left our home |
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The time after was difficult, I felt rather unnerved |
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Because of my ugly appearance, they treated me like a fool |
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A misfit, I was derided by the girls of our school |
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I reached the height of my mental quandary |
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More and more I shied away and went my lonely way |
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The time of retaliation will come |
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Fear, pain, torment |
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They will come |
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Admiration, worship |
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They will treat me like a god |
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To talk with my schoolmates about girls was an abomination |
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Possessing a girl was my biggest sexual imagination |
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I had realized that this idea could never be reality |
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Dazzled through my sexual lust I planned many different stra- |
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tegies |
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I possessed no bad conscience only one aim in my eyes |
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The act of cruelty considered the last details in my mind |
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A long time to wait for the sunset and the sacrifice made me |
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blind |
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She was my number one girl, young with her long fair hair |
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I struck her and dragged her body to the thicket where I raped |
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her |
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At this moment you were my girl and my dream was reality |
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She saw my face, there was no other choice but to kill her |
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Only now I had understood what I had done |
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I left the scene of the crime quickly and went home |
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I can't live with the thoughts that I killed a young girl |
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This was my past but I'm not proud about now |
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Although I killed a girl, they couldn't give me a life senten- |
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ce |
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After one year in the youth custody unit I will be free |
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Fortunately we all live in a cracked system where you can kill |
