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I am scarred from the actions of others |
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I am scarred from the actions of self |
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I am scarred by the times |
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That I held back the storm |
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With no one to turn to |
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Nobody else |
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I have risen beyond what I used to be |
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I have fought hard to gain what I lacked |
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But I still hear the footsteps |
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Of my failures on my heels |
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And everything I thought left behind |
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Is clinging to my back |
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I've made myself a fortress |
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In pursuit of all my dreams |
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But it's built upon my self doubt |
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And more fragile than it seems |
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I can struggle to forget |
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That I've always felt alone |
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But the consequence |
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Of standing on my own |
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I've been broken |
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Nothing can make me whole again |
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I've been fighting |
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Battles that can't be won |
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Drowning in a sea of self-hate |
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Searching for an answer that never was |
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I've spent half of my life trying to kill my demons |
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And I'm frightened that the process |
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May have turned me into one of them |
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I've looked into the darkness of my personal abyss |
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But I feel it staring back |
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And it sees right through me |
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I am beaten but unbroken |
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I am bloodied but unbowed |
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And these years have left me shattered |
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But I'll make it through somehow |
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I think that's probably why |
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I've been alone all my life |
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I think that's probably why |
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I am lost and I'm scared that I can't find my way |
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I've spent half of my life trying to kill my demons |
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And I'm frightened that the process |
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May have turned me into one of them |
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I've looked into the darkness of my personal abyss |
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But I feel it staring back |
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And it sees right through me |
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Now I struggle to forget |
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That I've always felt alone |
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And I can't escape the consequence |
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Of being on my own |
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I've been broken |
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Nothing can make me whole again |
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I've been fighting |
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Battles that can't be won |
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I've been tortured |
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Shaped into what I am |
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Scars I've hidden |
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Through my entire life |
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Searching for what |
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Never was |
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Drowning in an |
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Endless sea of doubt |