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I don't remember the first time |
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But I think |
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I survived |
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Probably better not to try to recall cause it feedsit, yea it keeps it alive |
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There are specific things |
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That I have to do |
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Day to day just to keep it at bay |
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You wouldn't believe it if you knew |
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Oh no, this isn't real |
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Here's a little secret |
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Here's the best part |
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This is gonna take me right back to the start |
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If I can't hear it |
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If it's out of mind |
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Wait until it settles |
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Comes around a second time |
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I don't remember the first time |
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But I think |
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I survived |
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Probably better not to try to recall cause it feedsit, yea it keeps it alive |
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Oh no, this isn't real |
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Here's a little secret |
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Here's the best part |
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This is gonna take me right back to the start |
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If I can't hear it |
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If it's out of mind |
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Wait until it settles |
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Comes around a second time |
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I can feel it loom up into my head |
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It is in the room |
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Panicking in bed |
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I feel it coming on |
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Taking over view |
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Oh please not tonight |
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There's nothing |
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I can doThis is bigger than me |
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This is in my fear |
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This is pitiful |
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I just disappear |
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Swells up all around me |
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Swallows up inside |
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Sell my senses if it would make this subside |
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I can barely handle |
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I can pass the time |
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Staring through the curtains up into the sky |
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Where there is no depth perception |
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Keep preoccupied: self deception |
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Nobody recognises |
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It doesn't have a name |
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My brother is infected; he's acting just the same |
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Screaming like a siren, up and down the hall |
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He just wants to stop it |
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He wants to end it all |
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I am just a child |
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I have nothing more than the basic function |
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I amrunning from |
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I curl up and wallow |
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My distortion |
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Everything is disproportion |
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Suddenly I wake |
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All is back again |
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Everything is closer |
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Morning is the same |
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And I can't hear it; it's way out of mind |
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I will just forget this till the next time |
