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When I think about the past of my life, and all that I did on my own, |
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my own, all the years that I was struggling day and night on the block was my own, |
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to me I'm an outcast. |
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It's been a long time coming, I'm still here I'm still breathing, |
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I've spent a long time running through each season to season. |
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I'm your prime example if you can't do it, so give it up, |
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I'm your prime example cause I've been through it so listen up. |
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It was deeper than just doing music and drug abusing, |
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It's about your life and how you use it, the road you chose it, |
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Determines your every step and movement, lord knows I tried, knows I'm defied, |
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It's hard to run a race that I know I'm behind in. Know that I'm grinding, |
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Look at life through my eyes, it ain't as easy as it looks. |
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Nobody knows the blood and tears that it took. |
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Here's an expected turn of aggression, that turned to obsession, |
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Turned to depression, through all that you think I learned all my lessons. |
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I ain't even scratching the surface, I ain't even half way, |
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It ain't even about the bitches, or the money I've made. |
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In fifty years when I look back on my past, |
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All that I want is for my daughters to be proud of their dad, what else do I have. |
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When I think about the past of my life, and all that I did on my own, |
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my own, all the years that I was struggling day and night on the block was my own, |
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all that I wanted was a chance to be accepted in life, so tell me if I'm wrong, |
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I just want to do it before it's over and life's gone, |
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Tell me you feel, But I never thought I would really be the man, |
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to grow up from nothing to the one sitting before me, See I'm an outcast. |
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Now momma always said it would be worth it, through all the pain and suffering, |
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Through all the rain and hurting, nobodies perfect. |
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I'm certain that if I left this earth, today they would miss me, |
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But at my funeral how long would the list be before I'm history. |
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An only child with no brothers or sisters, so often me and momma would pack up, |
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The Dots and moving often is exhausting, back and forth in them section 8 apartments, |
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There's only so much you can take, before it breaks your conscience and changes to nonsense. |
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Now there's been times in life where I feel flawless, I'd have to say those, |
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Were the times where my ears would hear whispers, from other angels. |
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Taking actions from other angles, there's always a gamble, |
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Always a handful, I was raised to show the game what I stand for. |
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Can't nobody take this moment from you, there's nowhere to run to, |
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So force them to make the decision to hate you or love you. |
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That's the moment that your fate comes to a crossroads, |
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And God knows, I've had my share of choices to make with obstacles off-road. |
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When I think about the past of my life, and all that I did on my own, |
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my own, all the years that I was struggling day and night on the block was my own, |
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all I wanted was to be accepted in life, so tell me if I'm wrong, |
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I just want to do it before it's over and life's gone, |
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tell me you feel, but I never thought I would really be the man, |
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to grow up from nothing to the one sitting before me, See I'm an outcast. |
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With every piece of sand that's in my hourglass, and with every breathe I take another hour pass. |
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I tell myself it don't matter, I'll let them chitter chatter, |
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Live with the laughter, get what I'm after, turn the page of my book. |
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It's another chapter, I'm after a bigger dream just to capture the bigger things, |
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That have actually came between all the people that disagree, |
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With the typical human being that never makes up excuse's. |
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But takes the breaks and heartaches the way that he slaves to make two cents, |
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He's a nuisance but they still follow his shoe prints, |
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Till the day that he chooses to break away from the pack, and the past is useless. |
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Give it everything you got and never settle for less again, |
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And they told me while growing up that success is the best revenge. |
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I'm blessed to have walked the broken road,From student to teacher, |
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When it finally evens out and your through it, it's much sweeter. |
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I would never take it for granted, never out lash but outlast the struggles, |
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That have now passed, label me as an outcast. |
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When I think about the past of my life, and all that I did on my own, |
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my own, all the years that I was struggling day and night on the block was my own, |
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all I wanted was to be accepted in life, so tell me if I'm wrong, |
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I just want to do it before it's over and life's gone, |
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tell me you feel, but I never thought I would really be the man, |
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to grow up from nothing to the one sitting before me,See I'm an outcast. |