Cleaning Out My Closet 歌词
| 歌曲 | Cleaning Out My Closet |
| 歌手 | Angel Haze |
| 专辑 | Classick |
| 下载 | Image LRC TXT |
| [00:09.18] | Now, this might get a little personal |
| [00:11.92] | Or a lot actually Parental discretion is advised |
| [00:19.91] | When I was 10, shit, I believed I could fly |
| [00:23.61] | I would just flap my fucking arms and meet with the sky |
| [00:26.80] | And in my mind I would invision I was speaking with God |
| [00:33.30] | And then I chop his fucking fist off and beat him with mine |
| [00:33.05] | But this is just a fucking portion of the war with my mind |
| [00:33.69] | So I'm a take you fuckers back into the vortex of time |
| [00:39.75] | When I was 7 invision me at the bottom of stairs |
| [00:42.74] | And I silently swear that this is the truth no falacy here |
| [00:45.78] | See I was young man... I was just a toddler a kid |
| [00:49.17] | And he wasn't the first to successfully try what he did |
| [00:52.31] | He took me to the basement and after the lights would be cut |
| [00:55.64] | He whipped it out in sight of my eyes and forced his cock through my gut |
| [00:58.88] | See it was weird because I felt that I was losing my mind |
| [01:02.08] | And then it happened like it happened like milions of times |
| [01:05.31] | And I would swear that I would tell but then they'd think I was lying |
| [01:08.80] | And now the power that he held was like a beacon in mine |
| [01:11.79] | So now I got used to it, I put up with the shit |
| [01:14.97] | And now my hate was so Vocanicly eruptive and shit |
| [01:18.27] | But this is nothing 'cause I guess he told his friend what he do |
| [01:21.60] | And they ate it up shit I was like a buffet for 2 |
| [01:24.64] | And then it happened then at home where everybody fucking knew |
| [01:28.03] | And they ain't do shit but fucking blame it on youth |
| [01:31.27] | I'm sorry mom but I really used to blame it on you |
| [01:34.51] | But even you by then wouldn't know what to do |
| [01:37.64] | And now it happened so often that he was getting particular |
| [01:41.19] | And I more scared every time I worked in my speed and ventricular |
| [01:44.53] | One night he came home and I was asleep in my bed |
| [01:47.41] | He climbed on top of me and forced himself between my legs |
| [01:50.93] | He told me |
| [01:51.89] | "Hey ray, I see you like them popsicle sticks |
| [01:54.22] | So put your mouth on my dick and suck and swallow the spit"***（ |
| [01:57.52] | And I was confused but I was scared so I did what he said |
| [02:00.65] | I had no idea the affect it would have on my head |
| [02:03.83] | My heart was pumping it was stumping with like tons of my fear |
| [02:07.22] | Imagine being 7 seeing cum in yo underwear |
| [02:10.26] | I know it's nasty but sometimes I'd even bleed from my butt |
| [02:13.46] | Disgusting right, now let that feeling ring through your guts |
| [02:16.59] | I thought of offing myself I thought of killing these niggas |
| [02:20.24] | Wanted to take a fucking brick and push their teeth through their liver |
| [02:23.27] | Wanted to smash like the fucking world and burn it's leftover part |
| [02:26.41] | Wanted to rip it out and just fucking step on my heart |
| [02:29.44] | Then I grew up and I wasn't within a reach of these men |
| [02:32.83] | But that didn't keep out of motherfucking reach of my sin |
| [02:36.18] | And psychologically I was just as fucked as they come |
| [02:39.12] | I was confused I had to prove I wasn't fucked from the jump |
| [02:42.45] | I was afraid of myself I had no love for myself |
| [02:45.60] | I tried to kill I tried to hide I tried to run from myself |
| [02:48.99] | There was a point in my life where I didn't like who I was |
| [02:52.17] | So I create the other people I would try to become |
| [02:55.37] | Sexuality came into play and with as scarred as I was |
| [02:58.90] | I was extremely scared of men so I start liking girls |
| [03:00.67] | I started starving myself fucked up my bodily health |
| [03:05.58] | I didn't want to be attractive to nobody else |
| [03:08.41] | I didn't want the appeal wanted to stop my own growth |
| [03:11.60] | But there's a fucking reason behind every scar that I show |
| [03:14.99] | I never got to be a kid so that's as far as I grow |
| [03:18.63] | My mental state is out of date and that's how far as I know |
| [03:21.67] | My biggest problem was fear what being fearful could do and |
| [03:24.80] | It made me run it made me hide it made me scared of the truth |
| [03:27.95] | I'm not deranged anymore I'm not the same anymore |
| [03:31.04] | I mean I'm sane but I'm insane but not the same as before |
| [03:34.63] | I had to deal with my shit I had to look at my truth |
| [03:37.66] | To understand that to grow you gotta look at your root |
| [03:40.81] | I had to cut off the dead I had to make myself proud |
| [03:44.25] | And I'm just standing breathing living proof look at me now |
| [03:47.49] | I made it through everything I made you look like a clown |
| [03:50.63] | I'm fucking great k fucking hate you nigga look at me now |
| [03:53.87] | And I'm just saying this to tell you there's a way from the ground |
| [03:57.26] | The makings of a legend is often hiden in thorns |
| [04:00.87] | So just be strong and just move on and just accept what you can |
| [04:03.55] | Because it makes your story better when you read it, the end |
| [04:07.46] | That's the story of every scar that I show |
| [04:13.48] | I made it out this a mean nobody's goten before |
| [04:16.82] | I had to open my wounds I had to bleed till I stop |
| [04:20.06] | Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet |
| [04:23.34] | I said I opened my wounds I had to bleed till I stop |
| [04:26.84] | Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet |
| [00:09.18] | Now, this might get a little personal |
| [00:11.92] | Or a lot actually Parental discretion is advised |
| [00:19.91] | When I was 10, shit, I believed I could fly |
| [00:23.61] | I would just flap my fucking arms and meet with the sky |
| [00:26.80] | And in my mind I would invision I was speaking with God |
| [00:33.30] | And then I chop his fucking fist off and beat him with mine |
| [00:33.05] | But this is just a fucking portion of the war with my mind |
| [00:33.69] | So I' m a take you fuckers back into the vortex of time |
| [00:39.75] | When I was 7 invision me at the bottom of stairs |
| [00:42.74] | And I silently swear that this is the truth no falacy here |
| [00:45.78] | See I was young man... I was just a toddler a kid |
| [00:49.17] | And he wasn' t the first to successfully try what he did |
| [00:52.31] | He took me to the basement and after the lights would be cut |
| [00:55.64] | He whipped it out in sight of my eyes and forced his cock through my gut |
| [00:58.88] | See it was weird because I felt that I was losing my mind |
| [01:02.08] | And then it happened like it happened like milions of times |
| [01:05.31] | And I would swear that I would tell but then they' d think I was lying |
| [01:08.80] | And now the power that he held was like a beacon in mine |
| [01:11.79] | So now I got used to it, I put up with the shit |
| [01:14.97] | And now my hate was so Vocanicly eruptive and shit |
| [01:18.27] | But this is nothing ' cause I guess he told his friend what he do |
| [01:21.60] | And they ate it up shit I was like a buffet for 2 |
| [01:24.64] | And then it happened then at home where everybody fucking knew |
| [01:28.03] | And they ain' t do shit but fucking blame it on youth |
| [01:31.27] | I' m sorry mom but I really used to blame it on you |
| [01:34.51] | But even you by then wouldn' t know what to do |
| [01:37.64] | And now it happened so often that he was getting particular |
| [01:41.19] | And I more scared every time I worked in my speed and ventricular |
| [01:44.53] | One night he came home and I was asleep in my bed |
| [01:47.41] | He climbed on top of me and forced himself between my legs |
| [01:50.93] | He told me |
| [01:51.89] | " Hey ray, I see you like them popsicle sticks |
| [01:54.22] | So put your mouth on my dick and suck and swallow the spit" |
| [01:57.52] | And I was confused but I was scared so I did what he said |
| [02:00.65] | I had no idea the affect it would have on my head |
| [02:03.83] | My heart was pumping it was stumping with like tons of my fear |
| [02:07.22] | Imagine being 7 seeing cum in yo underwear |
| [02:10.26] | I know it' s nasty but sometimes I' d even bleed from my butt |
| [02:13.46] | Disgusting right, now let that feeling ring through your guts |
| [02:16.59] | I thought of offing myself I thought of killing these niggas |
| [02:20.24] | Wanted to take a fucking brick and push their teeth through their liver |
| [02:23.27] | Wanted to smash like the fucking world and burn it' s leftover part |
| [02:26.41] | Wanted to rip it out and just fucking step on my heart |
| [02:29.44] | Then I grew up and I wasn' t within a reach of these men |
| [02:32.83] | But that didn' t keep out of motherfucking reach of my sin |
| [02:36.18] | And psychologically I was just as fucked as they come |
| [02:39.12] | I was confused I had to prove I wasn' t fucked from the jump |
| [02:42.45] | I was afraid of myself I had no love for myself |
| [02:45.60] | I tried to kill I tried to hide I tried to run from myself |
| [02:48.99] | There was a point in my life where I didn' t like who I was |
| [02:52.17] | So I create the other people I would try to become |
| [02:55.37] | Sexuality came into play and with as scarred as I was |
| [02:58.90] | I was extremely scared of men so I start liking girls |
| [03:00.67] | I started starving myself fucked up my bodily health |
| [03:05.58] | I didn' t want to be attractive to nobody else |
| [03:08.41] | I didn' t want the appeal wanted to stop my own growth |
| [03:11.60] | But there' s a fucking reason behind every scar that I show |
| [03:14.99] | I never got to be a kid so that' s as far as I grow |
| [03:18.63] | My mental state is out of date and that' s how far as I know |
| [03:21.67] | My biggest problem was fear what being fearful could do and |
| [03:24.80] | It made me run it made me hide it made me scared of the truth |
| [03:27.95] | I' m not deranged anymore I' m not the same anymore |
| [03:31.04] | I mean I' m sane but I' m insane but not the same as before |
| [03:34.63] | I had to deal with my shit I had to look at my truth |
| [03:37.66] | To understand that to grow you gotta look at your root |
| [03:40.81] | I had to cut off the dead I had to make myself proud |
| [03:44.25] | And I' m just standing breathing living proof look at me now |
| [03:47.49] | I made it through everything I made you look like a clown |
| [03:50.63] | I' m fucking great k fucking hate you nigga look at me now |
| [03:53.87] | And I' m just saying this to tell you there' s a way from the ground |
| [03:57.26] | The makings of a legend is often hiden in thorns |
| [04:00.87] | So just be strong and just move on and just accept what you can |
| [04:03.55] | Because it makes your story better when you read it, the end |
| [04:07.46] | That' s the story of every scar that I show |
| [04:13.48] | I made it out this a mean nobody' s goten before |
| [04:16.82] | I had to open my wounds I had to bleed till I stop |
| [04:20.06] | Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet |
| [04:23.34] | I said I opened my wounds I had to bleed till I stop |
| [04:26.84] | Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet |
| [00:09.18] | Now, this might get a little personal |
| [00:11.92] | Or a lot actually Parental discretion is advised |
| [00:19.91] | When I was 10, shit, I believed I could fly |
| [00:23.61] | I would just flap my fucking arms and meet with the sky |
| [00:26.80] | And in my mind I would invision I was speaking with God |
| [00:33.30] | And then I chop his fucking fist off and beat him with mine |
| [00:33.05] | But this is just a fucking portion of the war with my mind |
| [00:33.69] | So I' m a take you fuckers back into the vortex of time |
| [00:39.75] | When I was 7 invision me at the bottom of stairs |
| [00:42.74] | And I silently swear that this is the truth no falacy here |
| [00:45.78] | See I was young man... I was just a toddler a kid |
| [00:49.17] | And he wasn' t the first to successfully try what he did |
| [00:52.31] | He took me to the basement and after the lights would be cut |
| [00:55.64] | He whipped it out in sight of my eyes and forced his cock through my gut |
| [00:58.88] | See it was weird because I felt that I was losing my mind |
| [01:02.08] | And then it happened like it happened like milions of times |
| [01:05.31] | And I would swear that I would tell but then they' d think I was lying |
| [01:08.80] | And now the power that he held was like a beacon in mine |
| [01:11.79] | So now I got used to it, I put up with the shit |
| [01:14.97] | And now my hate was so Vocanicly eruptive and shit |
| [01:18.27] | But this is nothing ' cause I guess he told his friend what he do |
| [01:21.60] | And they ate it up shit I was like a buffet for 2 |
| [01:24.64] | And then it happened then at home where everybody fucking knew |
| [01:28.03] | And they ain' t do shit but fucking blame it on youth |
| [01:31.27] | I' m sorry mom but I really used to blame it on you |
| [01:34.51] | But even you by then wouldn' t know what to do |
| [01:37.64] | And now it happened so often that he was getting particular |
| [01:41.19] | And I more scared every time I worked in my speed and ventricular |
| [01:44.53] | One night he came home and I was asleep in my bed |
| [01:47.41] | He climbed on top of me and forced himself between my legs |
| [01:50.93] | He told me |
| [01:51.89] | " Hey ray, I see you like them popsicle sticks |
| [01:54.22] | So put your mouth on my dick and suck and swallow the spit" |
| [01:57.52] | And I was confused but I was scared so I did what he said |
| [02:00.65] | I had no idea the affect it would have on my head |
| [02:03.83] | My heart was pumping it was stumping with like tons of my fear |
| [02:07.22] | Imagine being 7 seeing cum in yo underwear |
| [02:10.26] | I know it' s nasty but sometimes I' d even bleed from my butt |
| [02:13.46] | Disgusting right, now let that feeling ring through your guts |
| [02:16.59] | I thought of offing myself I thought of killing these niggas |
| [02:20.24] | Wanted to take a fucking brick and push their teeth through their liver |
| [02:23.27] | Wanted to smash like the fucking world and burn it' s leftover part |
| [02:26.41] | Wanted to rip it out and just fucking step on my heart |
| [02:29.44] | Then I grew up and I wasn' t within a reach of these men |
| [02:32.83] | But that didn' t keep out of motherfucking reach of my sin |
| [02:36.18] | And psychologically I was just as fucked as they come |
| [02:39.12] | I was confused I had to prove I wasn' t fucked from the jump |
| [02:42.45] | I was afraid of myself I had no love for myself |
| [02:45.60] | I tried to kill I tried to hide I tried to run from myself |
| [02:48.99] | There was a point in my life where I didn' t like who I was |
| [02:52.17] | So I create the other people I would try to become |
| [02:55.37] | Sexuality came into play and with as scarred as I was |
| [02:58.90] | I was extremely scared of men so I start liking girls |
| [03:00.67] | I started starving myself fucked up my bodily health |
| [03:05.58] | I didn' t want to be attractive to nobody else |
| [03:08.41] | I didn' t want the appeal wanted to stop my own growth |
| [03:11.60] | But there' s a fucking reason behind every scar that I show |
| [03:14.99] | I never got to be a kid so that' s as far as I grow |
| [03:18.63] | My mental state is out of date and that' s how far as I know |
| [03:21.67] | My biggest problem was fear what being fearful could do and |
| [03:24.80] | It made me run it made me hide it made me scared of the truth |
| [03:27.95] | I' m not deranged anymore I' m not the same anymore |
| [03:31.04] | I mean I' m sane but I' m insane but not the same as before |
| [03:34.63] | I had to deal with my shit I had to look at my truth |
| [03:37.66] | To understand that to grow you gotta look at your root |
| [03:40.81] | I had to cut off the dead I had to make myself proud |
| [03:44.25] | And I' m just standing breathing living proof look at me now |
| [03:47.49] | I made it through everything I made you look like a clown |
| [03:50.63] | I' m fucking great k fucking hate you nigga look at me now |
| [03:53.87] | And I' m just saying this to tell you there' s a way from the ground |
| [03:57.26] | The makings of a legend is often hiden in thorns |
| [04:00.87] | So just be strong and just move on and just accept what you can |
| [04:03.55] | Because it makes your story better when you read it, the end |
| [04:07.46] | That' s the story of every scar that I show |
| [04:13.48] | I made it out this a mean nobody' s goten before |
| [04:16.82] | I had to open my wounds I had to bleed till I stop |
| [04:20.06] | Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet |
| [04:23.34] | I said I opened my wounds I had to bleed till I stop |
| [04:26.84] | Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet |
| [00:09.18] | 这可能有一点私密 |
| [00:11.92] | 应该是很私密吧 呵 父母的决定总是明智的 |
| [00:19.91] | 我10岁时 我相信我可以飞 |
| [00:23.61] | 我会朝着天空 张开双臂 |
| [00:26.80] | 假想我正同上帝对话 |
| [00:33.30] | 然后我砍下他的拳头 揍他 |
| [00:33.05] | 这只是我脑海里这场战争的一小部分 |
| [00:33.69] | 我要将你们这些混蛋拖回时间的漩涡 |
| [00:39.75] | 想象一下 七岁的我呆在楼梯下 |
| [00:42.74] | 我发誓这是事实 绝没半句谎话 |
| [00:45.78] | 我当时很小 只是一个幼儿 |
| [00:49.17] | 况且他不是第一个成功尝试他所做的事的人 |
| [00:52.31] | 他把我带到地下室然后关了灯 |
| [00:55.64] | 他在我眼前脱下kk然后***（自行脑补） |
| [00:58.88] | 这很诡异 我感觉我已失去理智 |
| [01:02.08] | 然后就这样发生了 好像这已发生过千千万万次 |
| [01:05.31] | 我发誓我有说出这件事 但是别人都认为我在说谎 |
| [01:08.80] | 他做的一切已在我心里留下了阴影 |
| [01:11.79] | 所以现在我已习惯 一直忍受着 |
| [01:14.97] | 憎恨在我心里疯长 |
| [01:18.27] | 但这还不是最糟糕的 我猜他告诉了他朋友他所做的一切 |
| [01:21.60] | 但他们却帮他隐瞒 我就像一份双人自助餐（供他们无限享用） |
| [01:24.64] | 后来又发生了这种事 此后家里人都知道了 |
| [01:28.03] | 但他们什么也没做只怪是年少轻狂 |
| [01:31.27] | 我很抱歉mom 但我以前真的一直责怪你 |
| [01:34.51] | 但我知道那时候你也无能为力 |
| [01:37.64] | 后来这种事频频发生 他都把这当理所当然了 |
| [01:41.19] | 一次又一次 我越来越害怕 但我会（尽量配合）让这尽快结束 |
| [01:44.53] | 一天晚上 我正在睡觉时他来我家 |
| [01:47.41] | 他爬到我身上然后。。。 |
| [01:50.93] | 他告诉我 |
| [01:51.89] | 嘿ray 我知道你喜欢吃雪条 |
| [01:54.22] | 自行脑补画面） |
| [01:57.52] | 我很困惑也很害怕 所以我按他说的做了 |
| [02:00.65] | 我压根不知道这回在我脑海里挥之不去 |
| [02:03.83] | 我的心带着万吨恐惧一直跳 |
| [02:07.22] | 想想七岁时 你在你内衣上看到精液 |
| [02:10.26] | 我知道这很恶心 有时我的pp甚至会流血 |
| [02:13.46] | 很恶心 是吗？ 现在让那种感受在你肠子里游荡 |
| [02:16.59] | 我想过封闭自己 我想杀了那些渣男 |
| [02:20.24] | 想拿砖头把他们牙齿推到肝里（表示不清楚这种死法） |
| [02:23.27] | 想要烧毁这个世界 |
| [02:26.41] | 想要唤醒自己早已麻木的心 |
| [02:29.44] | 后来我长大了 远离了这些渣男 |
| [02:32.83] | 但我还是无法忘记我的耻辱 |
| [02:36.18] | 但他们仍在我心里挥之不去 |
| [02:39.12] | 我不明白为何自己总想逃避抹掉这些破事 |
| [02:42.45] | 我很怕自己 讨厌自己 |
| [02:45.60] | 我试过自杀 试过隐瞒 试过逃避自己 |
| [02:48.99] | 有一段时间我很讨厌自己 |
| [02:52.17] | 我试图改变自己 |
| [02:55.37] | 我还是跟以前一样害怕性 |
| [02:58.90] | 我很怕男人所以我开始喜欢女生 |
| [03:00.67] | 我开始绝食 开始自残 |
| [03:05.58] | 我不想任何人喜欢我 |
| [03:08.41] | 我不想吸引任何人 不想长大 |
| [03:11.60] | 我身上每道疤背后都有故事 |
| [03:14.99] | 我没有童年 |
| [03:18.63] | 我比同龄人都早熟 |
| [03:21.67] | 我最怕自己因恐惧而做傻事 |
| [03:24.80] | 我曾因此逃避 隐瞒 无法接受事实 |
| [03:27.95] | 现在我不再精神混乱了 我已不是之前那个我了 |
| [03:31.04] | 我很理智 但是我还是很疯狂 但不是之前精神混乱的那种疯 |
| [03:34.63] | 我不得不处理这些破事 我不得不面对现实 |
| [03:37.66] | 要明白 如果你想成长你必须要了解自己的根（清楚了解 接受自己的过去） |
| [03:40.81] | 我打消了自杀的念头 我努力让自己变成让自己骄傲的人 |
| [03:44.25] | 我平凡的生活着 看看现在的我 |
| [03:47.49] | 我已对过去释怀 我的释怀让你显得无比可笑 |
| [03:50.63] | 我过得很好 但我还是很讨厌你 渣男 |
| [03:53.87] | 我只想告诉你们天无绝人之路 |
| [03:57.26] | 成为传奇之道总是布满荆棘 |
| [04:00.87] | 你只需要前进 坚强点 清楚自己的实力 |
| [04:03.55] | 这会让你的人生更精彩 |
| [04:07.46] | 这就是我伤疤背后的故事 |
| [04:13.48] | 我用一种前所未有的方式讲出来 |
| [04:16.82] | 然而我不得不揭开伤疤 如果我不停下来讲血流不止 |
| [04:20.06] | 感谢你们倾听我自爆家丑 |
| [04:23.34] | 我已揭开伤疤 只有我停止了血才会止 |
| [04:26.84] | 感谢你们倾听我自爆家丑 |
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