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It was a very cold clear fall night |
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I had a terrible dream |
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Billy name and brigid were playing under my stair case |
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On the second floor about two o'clock in the morning |
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I woke up |
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Because amos and archie had started barking |
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That made me very angry |
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Because i wasn't feeling well and i told them |
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I was very cross the real me |
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That they just better remember |
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What happened to sam the bad cat |
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That was left at home and got sick and went pussy heaven |
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It was a very cold clear fall night |
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Some snowflakes were falling |
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Gee, it was so beautiful |
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And so i went to get my camera to take some pictures |
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And then i was taking the pictures |
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But the exposure thing wasn't right |
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And i was going to call fred or gerry |
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To find out how to get set it |
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I was too late |
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And then i remembered they were still probably at dinner |
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And anyway |
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I felt really bad and didn't want to talk to anybody |
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But the snowflakes were so beautiful and real looking |
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And i really wanted to hold them |
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And that's when i heard the voices |
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From down the hall near the stairs |
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So i got a flashlight |
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And i was scared and i went out into the hallway |
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There's been all kinds of troubles |
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Lately in the neighborhood |
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And someone's got to bring home the bacon and anyway |
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There were brigid and billy playing |
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And under the stair case |
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Was a little meadow sort of like the park at 23rd street |
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Where all the young kids go and play frisbee |
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Gee, that must be fun |
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Maybe we should do an article on that in the magazine |
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But they'll just tell me i'm stupid and it won't sell |
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But i'll just hold my ground this time, i mean |
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It's my magazine, isn't it? |
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So i was thinking that as the snowflakes fell |
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And i heard those voices having so much fun |
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Gee, it would be so great to have some fun |
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So i called billy |
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But either he didn't hear me or he didn't want to answer |
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Which was so strange |
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Because |
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Even if i don't like reunions i've always loved billy |
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I'm so glad he's working |
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I mean it's different than ondine |
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He keeps touring with those movies |
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And he doesn't even pay us and the film |
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I mean the film's just going to disintegrate and then what |
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I mean he's so normal off of drugs |
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I just don't get it |
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And then i saw john cale |
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He's been looking really great |
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He's been coming by the office to exercise with me |
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Ronnie said i have a muscle |
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But he's been really mean since he went to aa |
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I mean what does it mean |
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When you give up drinking and then you're still so mean |
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He says i'm being lazy but i'm not |
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I'm just can't find any ideas |
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I mean i'm just not |
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Let's face it |
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Going to get any ideas up at the office |
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And seeing john made me think of the velvets |
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And i had been thinking about them |
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When i was on st. marks place |
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Going to that new gallery those sweet new kids have opened |
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But the thought i was old |
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And then i saw the old dom |
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The old club where we did our first shows |
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It was so great |
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And i don't understand about that velvet's first album |
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I mean i did the cover |
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I was the producer |
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And i always see it repackaged |
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And i've never gotten a penny from it |
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How could that be |
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I should call henry |
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But it was good seeing john |
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I did a cover for him |
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But i did in black and white and he change it to color |
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It would have been worth more if he'd left it my way |
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But you can never tell any body anything i've leaned that |
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I tried calling again to billy and john |
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They wouldn't recognize me it was like i wasn't there |
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Why won't they let me in |
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And then i saw lou |
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I'm so mad at him |
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Lou reed got married and didn't invite me |
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I mean is it because he thought i'd bring too many people |
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I don't get it |
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Could have at least called |
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I mean he's doing so great |
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Why doesn't he call me? |
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I saw him at the mtv show |
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And he was one row away and he didn't even say hello |
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I don't get it |
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You know i hate lou |
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I really do |
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He won't even hire us for his videos |
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And i was proud of him |
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I was so scared today |
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There was blood leaking thought my shirt |
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From those old scars from being shot |
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And the corset i wear to keep my insides in was hurting |
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And i did three sets of fifteen pushups |
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And four sets of ten setups |
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But then my insides hurt |
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And i saw drops of blood on my shirt and i remember |
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The doctors saying i was dead |
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And then later they had to take blood out of my hand |
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'couse they ran out or veins |
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But then |
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All this thinking was making me an old grouch |
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And you can't do anything anyway so |
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If they wouldn't let me play with them in my own dream |
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I was just going to have to make another |
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And another |
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And another |
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Gee, wouldn't it be funny if i died in this dream |
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Before i could make another one up |
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And nobody called |
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And nobody came |