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In my mind |
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In a future five years from now |
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I'm one hundred and twenty pounds |
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And I never get hung over |
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Because I will be the picture of discipline |
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Never minding what state I'm in |
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And I will be someone I admire |
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And it's funny how I imagined |
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That I would be that person now |
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But it does not seem to have happened |
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Maybe I've just forgotten how to see |
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That I am not exactly the person that I thought I'd be |
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And in my mind |
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In the faraway here and now |
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I've become in control somehow |
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And I never lose my wallet |
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Because I will be the picture of discipline |
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Never fucking up anything |
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And I'll be a good defensive driver |
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And it's funny how I imagined |
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That I would be that person now |
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But it does not seem to have happened |
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Maybe I've just forgotten how to see |
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That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be |
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And in my mind |
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When I'm old I am beautiful |
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Planting tulips and vegetables |
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Which I will mindfully watch over |
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Not like me now |
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I'm so busy with everything |
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That I don't look at anything |
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But I'm sure I'll look when I am older |
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And it's funny how I imagined |
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That I could be that person now |
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But that's not what I want |
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If that's what I wanted |
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Then I'd be giving up somehow |
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How strange to see |
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That I don't wanna be the person that I want to be |
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And in my mind |
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I imagine so many things |
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Things that aren't really happening |
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And when they put me in the ground |
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I'll start pounding the lid |
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Saying I haven't finished yet |
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I still have a tattoo to get |
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That says I'm living in the moment |
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And it's funny how I imagined |
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That I could win this winless fight |
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But maybe it isn't all that funny |
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That I've been fighting all my life |
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But maybe I have to think it's funny |
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If I wanna live before I die |
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And maybe it's funniest of all |
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To think I'll die before I actually see |
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That I am exactly the person that I want to be |
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Fuck yes |
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I am exactly the person that I want to be |
