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Yeah, alone in this room, just me and my conscious |
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Wondering if the lords really watching cause |
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If he is then tell me why I've been going through hell |
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Lately and I just don't feel like heavens an option |
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Look, I feel the guilt pouring in |
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I wonder if he feels my pain |
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Cause everyday its getting more intense |
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Moms could barely afford the rent |
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Had to do some shady shit to survive |
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But I just hope the lord forgives |
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Is he forgiving like they say he is |
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Is there anyway away from this |
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Is there even anyplace where kids go when they pass away |
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I heard somebody say there is |
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But I don't know who to trust no more |
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And grandma said I really shouldn't cuss no more |
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But I just tell her "I'mma try" and knowing I'mma stay the same |
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I try to change so many times, I can't adjust no more |
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Shit, but father when will I see more smiles and frowns |
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Where do I go when I'm buried deep in the ground |
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Father why is the world never holding me up |
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I feel like I'm always letting you down |
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I feel like I'm always letting you down |
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I feel like I'm always letting you down |
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I often wonder bout who I'm a disappointment to |
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But no matter how good you do, they still point at you |
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Sometimes I don't know how I get through the day |
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Cause even though you see me smile, it don't mean I'm okay |
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I just don't wanna be bothered with questions |
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Father why these cats always causing problems |
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I've been constantly stressing |
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Shit, I wonder if he's even listening to me |
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Searching for answers, but ain't nobody giving em' to me |
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Plus my girl needs attention, I can feel the tension |
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My pops is on a drinking binge |
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And he's on the break of an intervention |
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But he taught me so much with only his actions |
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What I learned from him, he would never imagine |
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If there was something that I would want him to know |
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Every mistake he made, it was all meant to happen |
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No time wasted cause I learned from it all |
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Made me a better man inside, made me learn when I fall |
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There's always a reason to get back up on your feet |
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So if you hear me lord, I hope you could answer this for me |
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Father when will I see more smiles and frowns |
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Where do I go when I'm buried deep in the ground |
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Father why is the world never holding me up |
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I feel like I'm always letting you down |
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I feel like I'm always letting you down |
