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Yeah. This is for anyone who's ever had a broken dream |
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or a ************* up childhood. Never lose hope. |
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See I was raised by a single mother, |
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no father figure, no sister, never had a brother. |
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Never had another man teach me how to be one. |
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Yeah, momma had a man but he was never calling me son. |
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And even if he did, yo I would never take it serious. |
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Cause people say they love me, but it's funny, |
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cause I don't think they know what love really is. |
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Cause love ain't when you hurt a person, |
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love ain't avoiding a problem, you should be getting involved. |
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Love ain't when you pick somebody up by the neck |
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and you grab his head and you slam it right into the wall. |
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I was a trouble kid in school so I just kept to myself. |
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Psychologists ordered me medicine, it never did help (nah). |
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Cause every time I took it I was never myself. |
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I wasn't G, I never had it strapped next to my belt. |
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Just a regular kid that never joined a sports team |
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and every time I'd tried to talk to a girl she'd ignore me. |
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I started hanging round stupid kids and broke a few laws. |
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Had a few problems, painted a few walls. |
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But one day, something happened that changed my life forever, |
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something that I'll always remember. |
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I said one day, something happened that changed my life forever, |
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something that I'll always remember. Check. |
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I was walking home after school with two friends from my class, |
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and then I see a sketchy face walk past. |
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But at the time I didn't think of it much |
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cause round here there's always sketchy cats, tweakers and such. |
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So I just kept walking til I got to King's Drive, |
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then seen a bunch of mother******s giving me the stink eye. |
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They started surrounding me, stopped me in my place. |
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And right outside the circle I seen a familiar face, |
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a cat that I used to be tight with. |
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Never had no problems with him, |
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but I guess he's smoking some nice *************t. |
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He came right towards me. |
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I said, "************* it, then fine. Let's catch a fair one." |
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Then caught a cheap shot from behind. |
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I ran, they tripped me and caught me and stomped me and kicked me. |
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Kicks to my face, punches to my ribs and my kidneys. |
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Then what happened next, you just might not believe, |
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but everybody scattered I was trying to breathe. |
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Students, parents, and teachers there watching me bleed, |
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but nobody did *************t, I was watching them leave |
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as I was dying, bleeding, losing my conscious. |
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Flashed back to reminders of things that I've never accomplished. |
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Everything turned white, then everything was fine. |
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No more worries, nothing on my mind. |
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No pain, no nothing, I guess it was my time. |
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Then my whole life flashed right in front of my eyes |
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but all of the sudden I snapped back to reality. |
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Took a look around but no ambulance was surrounding me. |
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Guess this is how it ends, huh? |
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I guess this is what my momma meant |
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when she said watch your friends, huh? |
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Guess I should have listened, but now it's too late. |
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Taking my last breath getting closer to my fate (getting closer to my fate). |
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And right when I felt I was good with dying, |
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a voice in my head said, "Don't stop, keep trying." |
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So I got my ass up, walked to school and dialed nine-one-one. |
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True story, ************* what you think you could do for me. |
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Fifteen years old, just another victim. |
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Just another kid that would end up dead or in prison. |
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Got to the hospital, the doctor said they don't know if I'ma live. |
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Immediate surgery tube through my ribs. |
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I could barely breathe, I was bleeding out. |
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That's when I met God, yeah I can see him now. |
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With a collapsed lung and two stab wounds, |
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I'm losing blood quick but I ain't going out soon. |
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Everybody left but I had strength in myself. |
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I'ma be ight, that's what I say to myself. |
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Yeah, and sure enough I kept on breathing. |
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Almost paralyzed for the next three weekends. |
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Private numbers calling, death threats to my family. |
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Even named my little sis so how can you be mad at me |
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when I told you that I fear for our safety, |
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cause no street cred is worth my momma's place, G. |
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They asked me who it was and I let em know. |
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I ain't ashamed of my choice and I don't regret it yo. |
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Cause truth is, I don't follow no one's rules. |
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I do what I feel's right, I ain't no one's mule. |
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The whole thing was recorded and put up online |
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but you should know, if you can't do the time, don't do the crime. |
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See I ain't no G, just a man with a passion, |
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but I always took responsibility for my actions. |
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I never hurt a soul in my life, I'm a family man. |
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Always kept my word, so tell me how bad of a man I am. |
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Cause when it comes down to it, all you got is you. |
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And we all gotta survive, do what you gotta do. |
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Fifteen years old, left in the dust. |
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The world taught me never to love and never to trust, nah. |
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But now I know my purpose, now I know what I'm here for. |
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Now I know what I've been waiting all these years for. |
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Fifteen years old, left in the dust. |
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The world taught me never to love and never to trust, nah. |
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But now I know my purpose, now I know what I'm here for. |
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Now I know why I've been waiting all these years. |
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Yours truly. |
