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[Verse 1] |
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It go - off of my sabbatical |
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Took a few years cause Slaughter is what I had to do |
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Which only brings me to now and I ought to be erratical |
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I say that cause my autobiographical is more so just a graph of you |
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I ain't mad, you did more than what I asked of you |
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As for me, I did less than what I could've |
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So though we were a hit I had to cancel that show |
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And now my standing solo, I'll be amped when she not a ho |
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But what you doing right now is real commendable |
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Take strength to do |
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Cause between us there's some deep root stare |
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I gave you the best ******* you ever got in your life |
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And stupid me thought it would be enough to keep you there |
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I thought you loved football |
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I was running through the hole with the stiff arm |
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But got disarmed, guess it was just harm |
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I ain't need to *******, I was looking for a peer |
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They say once you stop looking what you looking for appears |
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You were stronger than I pictured you, much stronger than me |
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And almost just as strong as John |
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And John, oh, that's just a friend of my moms |
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With tubes coming out his nose, but *******t I never knew why |
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But he was born with his heart in the right side of his chest |
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No, for real, his heart is in the right side of his chest |
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Doctors confused, they must do what they can do |
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But impute and say it ain't on the right side of his chest |
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Scared he might die in his sleep, deep |
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Every time he coughs wonders if it's a cough or a symptom |
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Us will get better later |
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He gon' live his whole life waking up every morning to a respirator |
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So I don't never say what I can't do |
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If he can be happy with life than ******* I can too |
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While Jose wanna die |
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Ain't tell nobody, but eyeing his eyes feel I should probably identify |
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I said everyday he lives with pain and want to end it |
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Something's wired wrong in your brain, you gotta mend it |
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Had a bad breakup and let it expose dude |
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But if she was getting you high then she would get you low too |
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So who's there to wait on me? |
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Y'all just get it off y'all and put the weight on me |
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******* look me in my eyes, it was amazing to me |
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And said she don't understand you not as crazy as me |
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You got God, *******, I'm the most mentally flawed ******* |
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You not even built to withstand what all I've endured, ******* |
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You know *******t about the thoughts in my head |
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Or the strength I need daily just to get out of bed |
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Just to open my eyes, *******, open your eyes |
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The words spoken of wise, you just know it in disguise |
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We can end this right here, I got nothing more to say to you |
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You ain't never met another ******g ******* crazier |
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Blank stare, couldn't believe 'em |
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Cat chastised me cause I got help when you need some |
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I can give less than a ******* and not a damn |
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I never be apologetic over who I am |
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I'm the same me, nothing changes when the riches do |
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But *******s wanna suck you dry just like the ******* do |
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They enter your mentions, sucks to be the center of attention |
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When you can't even center your attention |
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Yeah, so I'm ******g out of frustration |
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They love every second and accuse me of persuasion |
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Jam was a cancer to me, I had to rid it |
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Red got in her feelings fast, but won't admit it |
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Dawn I was bored then, never really smithen |
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V got threatened by the thought of competition |
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Malo wanna ******* all day, don't know how |
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She why I got a Viagra in my wallet right now |
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Step kept it simple, loved me for my mental |
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B got a *******, but she used me as her rental |
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And you, you just give me resistance |
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Say you needed comfort zone, for you it's distance |
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I tell 'em all I'm not available emotionally |
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They start giving me advice like they coaching me |
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I don't even ask it |
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It's something about bipolar sociopath *******t |
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They just find it attractive |
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Yeah, anti-social, but I mingle now |
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But I've been arguing much more since I've been single, how? |
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Tell me is this a relation*******p or just a *******hip? |
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Whatever situation it is it's all ******* *******ft |
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I'll admit it, I might love her a bit differently |
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As for them they'll all love to see a different me |
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Some cried to me, some are begging for it |
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Someone'll see that change, but not be present for it |
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You just act so frightened |
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Ignoring all logic now, she won't buy in |
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Even in your absence my feelings are heightened |
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Though I know some love's lost, it's not on my end |
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It's not mine, it's not mine at all |
