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Fresh out of high school glad cause he hated it |
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Everybody in the senior class call him gay but it |
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It never bothered him his name Johnathan |
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Best friend Julie she was cool |
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She went to prom with him |
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The principal said prom was no place for a queer couple |
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If he showed up with a boy then it'd be real trouble |
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Empty threats but what really got to him |
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Is that his boyfriend didn't wanna go to prom with him |
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Boyfriend Roderick kept the secret closeted |
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Scared to come out into this world of zero tolerance |
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Kinda popular played a lot of politics |
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Johnathan was book smart just received a scholarship |
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Off to college wanted Roderick to follow him |
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He see him in the halls |
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But Rod would never acknowledge him |
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Away from school though he was so affectionate |
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John had a good thing no use in upsetting it |
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Besides in college everything would be different |
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Everyone is educated no one would be tripping huh |
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He had it all figured out |
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Plus his parents were excited |
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Just to get him out the house |
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So they bought him a ticket |
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Even bought one for Roderick |
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Said to leave the end of summer |
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They would pay for all of it |
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So excited on his way to work at In-N-Out |
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End of his shift |
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He drove straight up to Roderick's house |
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He hopped out saw him with his crew |
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He walked right up he was ready to share the news |
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It had been a few days |
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He forgot how much he missed him |
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So excited that he moved in and kissed him |
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Roderick dissed him threw him to the floor |
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He said you faggot What'd you have to do that for |
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Looked at his homies You know I'm not gay |
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They just shook their heads turned and walked away |
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F**k F**k's wrong with you |
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Now he's screaming at Johnathan |
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What the hell was wrong with him |
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John said Okay it's over Let's be honest then |
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They never knew the real you they not your real friends |
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He drove away and vowed to never speak to him again |
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It had been a few weeks |
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Before John left for college |
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He thought that they should speak |
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Scared to do it for fear of rejection |
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But either way |
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He knew the world would never accept him |
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Dear America when you tell gay Americans |
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That they can't serve their country openly |
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Or marry the person that they love |
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You're telling that to kids too |
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Roderick was seventeen in and out of jail since ten |
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Never knew his father or spent time with any other men |
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He started running in them circles with the hustlers |
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Gangbanging dope slanging |
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Had some loyal customers |
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Locked him up at a very young age |
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Found religion and it ended all his criminal ways |
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He also found his first boyfriend |
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When he was locked up |
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Came home conflicted |
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So he really didn't talk much |
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Felt beginnings of a double life |
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The chaplain back in juve used |
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To tell him that it wasn't right |
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His bond with God was so strong |
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That was until he met John |
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And it felt so perfect |
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But suffering eternal damnation was it worth it |
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He still had to see him |
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It had been two years |
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He knew that he could never leave him |
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So he lived in fear of God's wrath |
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The preacher said God loves us all except fags |
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And that made him so mad he started packing his bags |
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Said he'd run away with John until it went all bad |
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The big incident |
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John slipped in front of his friends |
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And started kissing him |
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Now everything was different |
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He shut him out never thought about forgiving him |
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Until he got that text |
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John wanted to meet up the day after next |
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They met at In-N-Out on his dinner break |
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But he was so mad |
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That he couldn't look him in the face |
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Soon as he spoke they both started crying |
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Said he missed him so much he felt like he was dying |
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John said I can't describe how much I missed you |
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That's when Roderick pulled his pistol |
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He shot him right between the eyes |
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Then turned it on hisself cause he refused to live a lie |
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Suicide was against his beliefs |
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But knew it was the only way they'd ever find peace |
