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Children running down the street in uniforms |
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Laughing in the rain they were heading towards |
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And they were yelling about something |
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They were singing and clinging from the light |
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Tender men on attendance just like them |
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We'll forget about the rest |
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They were searching for sunlight |
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They were searching for gold |
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So why catch a fever from the inside? |
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Dig my hand into my pocket |
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Open up my wallet |
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Such a strange gesture to make in this town |
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Sure aint gold but it gets me around |
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Can I grab a twenty from the inside? |
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Can't you just smell it? |
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Now spend it wisely |
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He looks up at me then back at the ground. |
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I just wish he would f**kin'turn right around |
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Now, I have talked to myself late at night |
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Oh I tried to connect with the ghost who was |
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My best friend |
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My brother |
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My accomplice |
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Another writer my best man |
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And sometimes, I feel so forgiven at night |
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I just put down my shades but I open my ways for the battle that just leads me |
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I hear ben tell me |
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"brother your problems all started in the summer of '98 |
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In Northern New Jersey later in the day |
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I was thinking about a distance and unaccepting fate |
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I was fourteen years old but what else can I say? |
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Even then I knew time was gonna catch me |
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Imagine going to a private school in the summer of '02 |
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My first true love left me and I didn't know what to do |
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I moved into New York and I thought I found the truth |
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A plain glass full of patties and pills we shouldn't chew |
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Well I swore that the drugs were gonna kill me |
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I was wrong I was wrong I was ready for. Dont try to blame me |
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because she was wrong |
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Didn't know she was unaffected |
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Heard all I wanted throuh a needle |
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I knew that the drugs were gonna kill her |
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Fast forward to the fall of '05 |
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I met the girl of my dreams and she helped me to survive |
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Then she left my life at a complicated time |
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And in March of '06 I attempted suicide |
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Well, I know that sudifant can't kill me |
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Well maybe what I'll do |
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Ya, I'll apologize |
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Sorry mom and dad I never meant to make you cry |
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Thanks to all my friends you're the reason I'm alive |
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Wonder how I'm living in this rip we call time. |
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Well, it will take more than bad luck just to kill me |
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Lins and things and birds and sounds |
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I've got ten years of words buried in the ground |
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They're being reassembled by the ghost of Benny Brown |
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He's adapting the screenplay even still now |
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And he better cast someone cool like Johnny Depp to play me |
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Child took my twenty and he looked me in the eyes |
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He said "Thanks for the gold" and continued walking by |
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I could see him proudly show his friends it made me want to cry |
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'Cuz all I could do was think of my own life lucky guy |
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Thank you all for everything |
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I miss you all |
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Good Night. |
