[ti:Deja Vu] | |
[ar:Eminem] | |
[al:Relapse] | |
[ml:1.0] | |
[00:01.37] | DMC, we have a mid-thirties male found down, unresponsive |
[00:05.12] | Possible overdose, substance unknown |
[00:07.68] | Pulse is 60 and thready, respiration's eight |
[00:10.69] | He's intubated and we're bagging him now |
[00:12.74] | BP 90 over palp |
[00:14.73] | Patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic |
[00:17.01] | Has aspirated, GSC is 3 |
[00:19.70] | We'll update en route ETA ten minutes |
[00:22.16] | As I fall deeper into a manic state |
[00:25.12] | Im a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug outta trate |
[00:28.76] | The blood pressure climbs to a dramatic rate |
[00:31.15] | I seem to gravitate to the bottle of Nyquil than i salivate |
[00:34.56] | Start off with the Nyquil with like I think I will just have a taste |
[00:37.54] | Couple of sips of that than I gradually graduate |
[00:40.17] | To a harder prescription drug called valium like yah thats great |
[00:43.20] | I go to just take one than i end up like having eight |
[00:45.93] | Now i need something in my stomach because i haven't ate |
[00:48.98] | Maybe ill grab a plate of nachos and ill have a steak |
[00:51.71] | And youd think with all i have at stake look at my daughters face |
[00:55.30] | Mommy something is wrong with dad I thank |
[00:57.63] | Hes acting weird again he's really beginnings to scare me |
[01:00.41] | Wont shave his beard again and he pretends that he doesn't hear me |
[01:03.19] | And all he does eat dorritos and cheetos and he just |
[01:06.04] | Fell asleep in his car eating three muskateers in the rear seat |
[01:08.66] | |
[01:09.08] | Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don't know |
[01:12.03] | It feels like ive been down this road before |
[01:14.72] | So lonely and cold it's like something takes over me |
[01:18.12] | As soon as i go home and close the door |
[01:20.55] | God feels like déjà vu i wanna get away from this place i do |
[01:25.44] | But i cant and i won't say i try but i know it's a lie |
[01:28.96] | cause i don't and why i just don't knowwoooo |
[01:31.94] | Maybe just a nice cold brew, whats a beer |
[01:34.18] | Thats the devil in my ear ive been sober a ****in year |
[01:36.95] | And that ****er still talks to me hes all i can ****ign hear |
[01:39.78] | Marshall c'mon well watch the game its the cowboys and buccanears |
[01:42.90] | And maybe if i just drink half ill be half buzzed |
[01:45.61] | For half of the time, whose the mastermind behind that little line |
[01:48.94] | With that kind of rational man i got half a mind |
[01:51.58] | To have another half a glass of wine sounds assenine |
[01:54.03] | Yeah i know, but i never had no problem with alcohol |
[01:57.19] | Ouch look out for the wall aim for the couch im about to fall |
[02:00.27] | I miss the couch and down go like a bouncy ball |
[02:02.72] | Shit must of knocked me out cause i didn't feel the ground at all |
[02:06.07] | Wow what the **** happened last night where am i |
[02:08.63] | Man **** am i hung over and god damn i |
[02:11.51] | Got a headache shit half a vicodin, why cant i |
[02:14.31] | All systems ready for take off, please stand by |
[02:17.18] | |
[02:17.56] | Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don't know |
[02:20.59] | It feels like ive been down this road before |
[02:23.30] | So lonely and cold it's like something takes over me |
[02:26.53] | As soon as i go home and close the door |
[02:29.08] | God feels like déjà vu i wanna get away from this place i do |
[02:34.02] | But i cant and i won't say i try but i know it's a lie |
[02:37.13] | cause i don't and why i just don't knowwoooo |
[02:39.65] | |
[02:39.90] | So i take a vicodin splash it hits my stomach and ahhhhhh |
[02:42.72] | Couple of weeks go by and it aint even like i am getting high |
[02:45.44] | Now i need it to not feel sick yah im getting by |
[02:48.33] | Wouldn't even be taking this shit if deshauwn didn't die |
[02:51.24] | Oh yeah theres an excuse you lose proof so you use |
[02:54.98] | Theres new rules its cool if its helping you to get through |
[02:56.86] | Its twelve noon aint no harm in self inducing a snooze |
[02:59.64] | What else is new **** it what would elvis do in your shoes |
[03:02.61] | Now here i am three months later full blown relapse |
[03:05.55] | Just get high until the kids get home from school holmes relax |
[03:08.57] | And since im convince that im an in-somni-ac |
[03:11.23] | I need these pills to be able to sleep so i take three naps |
[03:14.03] | Just to be able to function throughout the day |
[03:16.12] | Lets see thats an ambian each nap how many valium three |
[03:19.70] | And that averages out to one good hour of sleep |
[03:22.29] | So now you see the reason how come he |
[03:25.32] | Has taken four years to just put out an album b |
[03:28.17] | See me and you we almost had the same outcome heath |
[03:31.07] | Cause that Christmas you know that whole neumonia thing |
[03:33.97] | It was bolognia was it the methadonia think |
[03:36.77] | But hydrocordone ya hide inside ya pornos |
[03:39.30] | Ya vcr tape cases put ya ambiants see great places |
[03:42.55] | To hide em aint it, so you can lie to haily |
[03:45.32] | Im going beddy by whitney baby good night elaina |
[03:48.17] | Go in the room and shut the bedroom door |
[03:50.31] | And wake up in an ambulance they say they found me on the bathroom floor |
[03:53.71] | |
[03:54.13] | Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don't know |
[03:57.66] | It feels like ive been down this road before |
[04:00.39] | So lonely and cold it's like something takes over me |
[04:03.63] | As soon as i go home and close the door |
[04:06.17] | God feels like déjà vu i wanna get away from this place i do |
[04:11.03] | But i cant and i won't say i try but i know it's a lie |
[04:13.98] | cause i don't and why i just don't knowwoooo |
[04:22.32] |
ti: Deja Vu | |
ar: Eminem | |
al: Relapse | |
ml: 1. 0 | |
[00:01.37] | DMC, we have a midthirties male found down, unresponsive |
[00:05.12] | Possible overdose, substance unknown |
[00:07.68] | Pulse is 60 and thready, respiration' s eight |
[00:10.69] | He' s intubated and we' re bagging him now |
[00:12.74] | BP 90 over palp |
[00:14.73] | Patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic |
[00:17.01] | Has aspirated, GSC is 3 |
[00:19.70] | We' ll update en route ETA ten minutes |
[00:22.16] | As I fall deeper into a manic state |
[00:25.12] | Im a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug outta trate |
[00:28.76] | The blood pressure climbs to a dramatic rate |
[00:31.15] | I seem to gravitate to the bottle of Nyquil than i salivate |
[00:34.56] | Start off with the Nyquil with like I think I will just have a taste |
[00:37.54] | Couple of sips of that than I gradually graduate |
[00:40.17] | To a harder prescription drug called valium like yah thats great |
[00:43.20] | I go to just take one than i end up like having eight |
[00:45.93] | Now i need something in my stomach because i haven t ate |
[00:48.98] | Maybe ill grab a plate of nachos and ill have a steak |
[00:51.71] | And youd think with all i have at stake look at my daughters face |
[00:55.30] | Mommy something is wrong with dad I thank |
[00:57.63] | Hes acting weird again he s really beginnings to scare me |
[01:00.41] | Wont shave his beard again and he pretends that he doesn t hear me |
[01:03.19] | And all he does eat dorritos and cheetos and he just |
[01:06.04] | Fell asleep in his car eating three muskateers in the rear seat |
[01:08.66] | |
[01:09.08] | Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don t know |
[01:12.03] | It feels like ive been down this road before |
[01:14.72] | So lonely and cold it s like something takes over me |
[01:18.12] | As soon as i go home and close the door |
[01:20.55] | God feels like de ja vu i wanna get away from this place i do |
[01:25.44] | But i cant and i won t say i try but i know it s a lie |
[01:28.96] | cause i don t and why i just don t knowwoooo |
[01:31.94] | Maybe just a nice cold brew, whats a beer |
[01:34.18] | Thats the devil in my ear ive been sober a in year |
[01:36.95] | And that er still talks to me hes all i can ign hear |
[01:39.78] | Marshall c mon well watch the game its the cowboys and buccanears |
[01:42.90] | And maybe if i just drink half ill be half buzzed |
[01:45.61] | For half of the time, whose the mastermind behind that little line |
[01:48.94] | With that kind of rational man i got half a mind |
[01:51.58] | To have another half a glass of wine sounds assenine |
[01:54.03] | Yeah i know, but i never had no problem with alcohol |
[01:57.19] | Ouch look out for the wall aim for the couch im about to fall |
[02:00.27] | I miss the couch and down go like a bouncy ball |
[02:02.72] | Shit must of knocked me out cause i didn t feel the ground at all |
[02:06.07] | Wow what the happened last night where am i |
[02:08.63] | Man am i hung over and god damn i |
[02:11.51] | Got a headache shit half a vicodin, why cant i |
[02:14.31] | All systems ready for take off, please stand by |
[02:17.18] | |
[02:17.56] | Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don t know |
[02:20.59] | It feels like ive been down this road before |
[02:23.30] | So lonely and cold it s like something takes over me |
[02:26.53] | As soon as i go home and close the door |
[02:29.08] | God feels like de ja vu i wanna get away from this place i do |
[02:34.02] | But i cant and i won t say i try but i know it s a lie |
[02:37.13] | cause i don t and why i just don t knowwoooo |
[02:39.65] | |
[02:39.90] | So i take a vicodin splash it hits my stomach and ahhhhhh |
[02:42.72] | Couple of weeks go by and it aint even like i am getting high |
[02:45.44] | Now i need it to not feel sick yah im getting by |
[02:48.33] | Wouldn t even be taking this shit if deshauwn didn t die |
[02:51.24] | Oh yeah theres an excuse you lose proof so you use |
[02:54.98] | Theres new rules its cool if its helping you to get through |
[02:56.86] | Its twelve noon aint no harm in self inducing a snooze |
[02:59.64] | What else is new it what would elvis do in your shoes |
[03:02.61] | Now here i am three months later full blown relapse |
[03:05.55] | Just get high until the kids get home from school holmes relax |
[03:08.57] | And since im convince that im an insomniac |
[03:11.23] | I need these pills to be able to sleep so i take three naps |
[03:14.03] | Just to be able to function throughout the day |
[03:16.12] | Lets see thats an ambian each nap how many valium three |
[03:19.70] | And that averages out to one good hour of sleep |
[03:22.29] | So now you see the reason how come he |
[03:25.32] | Has taken four years to just put out an album b |
[03:28.17] | See me and you we almost had the same outcome heath |
[03:31.07] | Cause that Christmas you know that whole neumonia thing |
[03:33.97] | It was bolognia was it the methadonia think |
[03:36.77] | But hydrocordone ya hide inside ya pornos |
[03:39.30] | Ya vcr tape cases put ya ambiants see great places |
[03:42.55] | To hide em aint it, so you can lie to haily |
[03:45.32] | Im going beddy by whitney baby good night elaina |
[03:48.17] | Go in the room and shut the bedroom door |
[03:50.31] | And wake up in an ambulance they say they found me on the bathroom floor |
[03:53.71] | |
[03:54.13] | Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don t know |
[03:57.66] | It feels like ive been down this road before |
[04:00.39] | So lonely and cold it s like something takes over me |
[04:03.63] | As soon as i go home and close the door |
[04:06.17] | God feels like de ja vu i wanna get away from this place i do |
[04:11.03] | But i cant and i won t say i try but i know it s a lie |
[04:13.98] | cause i don t and why i just don t knowwoooo |
[04:22.32] |
ti: Deja Vu | |
ar: Eminem | |
al: Relapse | |
ml: 1. 0 | |
[00:01.37] | DMC, we have a midthirties male found down, unresponsive |
[00:05.12] | Possible overdose, substance unknown |
[00:07.68] | Pulse is 60 and thready, respiration' s eight |
[00:10.69] | He' s intubated and we' re bagging him now |
[00:12.74] | BP 90 over palp |
[00:14.73] | Patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic |
[00:17.01] | Has aspirated, GSC is 3 |
[00:19.70] | We' ll update en route ETA ten minutes |
[00:22.16] | As I fall deeper into a manic state |
[00:25.12] | Im a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug outta trate |
[00:28.76] | The blood pressure climbs to a dramatic rate |
[00:31.15] | I seem to gravitate to the bottle of Nyquil than i salivate |
[00:34.56] | Start off with the Nyquil with like I think I will just have a taste |
[00:37.54] | Couple of sips of that than I gradually graduate |
[00:40.17] | To a harder prescription drug called valium like yah thats great |
[00:43.20] | I go to just take one than i end up like having eight |
[00:45.93] | Now i need something in my stomach because i haven t ate |
[00:48.98] | Maybe ill grab a plate of nachos and ill have a steak |
[00:51.71] | And youd think with all i have at stake look at my daughters face |
[00:55.30] | Mommy something is wrong with dad I thank |
[00:57.63] | Hes acting weird again he s really beginnings to scare me |
[01:00.41] | Wont shave his beard again and he pretends that he doesn t hear me |
[01:03.19] | And all he does eat dorritos and cheetos and he just |
[01:06.04] | Fell asleep in his car eating three muskateers in the rear seat |
[01:08.66] | |
[01:09.08] | Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don t know |
[01:12.03] | It feels like ive been down this road before |
[01:14.72] | So lonely and cold it s like something takes over me |
[01:18.12] | As soon as i go home and close the door |
[01:20.55] | God feels like dé jà vu i wanna get away from this place i do |
[01:25.44] | But i cant and i won t say i try but i know it s a lie |
[01:28.96] | cause i don t and why i just don t knowwoooo |
[01:31.94] | Maybe just a nice cold brew, whats a beer |
[01:34.18] | Thats the devil in my ear ive been sober a in year |
[01:36.95] | And that er still talks to me hes all i can ign hear |
[01:39.78] | Marshall c mon well watch the game its the cowboys and buccanears |
[01:42.90] | And maybe if i just drink half ill be half buzzed |
[01:45.61] | For half of the time, whose the mastermind behind that little line |
[01:48.94] | With that kind of rational man i got half a mind |
[01:51.58] | To have another half a glass of wine sounds assenine |
[01:54.03] | Yeah i know, but i never had no problem with alcohol |
[01:57.19] | Ouch look out for the wall aim for the couch im about to fall |
[02:00.27] | I miss the couch and down go like a bouncy ball |
[02:02.72] | Shit must of knocked me out cause i didn t feel the ground at all |
[02:06.07] | Wow what the happened last night where am i |
[02:08.63] | Man am i hung over and god damn i |
[02:11.51] | Got a headache shit half a vicodin, why cant i |
[02:14.31] | All systems ready for take off, please stand by |
[02:17.18] | |
[02:17.56] | Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don t know |
[02:20.59] | It feels like ive been down this road before |
[02:23.30] | So lonely and cold it s like something takes over me |
[02:26.53] | As soon as i go home and close the door |
[02:29.08] | God feels like dé jà vu i wanna get away from this place i do |
[02:34.02] | But i cant and i won t say i try but i know it s a lie |
[02:37.13] | cause i don t and why i just don t knowwoooo |
[02:39.65] | |
[02:39.90] | So i take a vicodin splash it hits my stomach and ahhhhhh |
[02:42.72] | Couple of weeks go by and it aint even like i am getting high |
[02:45.44] | Now i need it to not feel sick yah im getting by |
[02:48.33] | Wouldn t even be taking this shit if deshauwn didn t die |
[02:51.24] | Oh yeah theres an excuse you lose proof so you use |
[02:54.98] | Theres new rules its cool if its helping you to get through |
[02:56.86] | Its twelve noon aint no harm in self inducing a snooze |
[02:59.64] | What else is new it what would elvis do in your shoes |
[03:02.61] | Now here i am three months later full blown relapse |
[03:05.55] | Just get high until the kids get home from school holmes relax |
[03:08.57] | And since im convince that im an insomniac |
[03:11.23] | I need these pills to be able to sleep so i take three naps |
[03:14.03] | Just to be able to function throughout the day |
[03:16.12] | Lets see thats an ambian each nap how many valium three |
[03:19.70] | And that averages out to one good hour of sleep |
[03:22.29] | So now you see the reason how come he |
[03:25.32] | Has taken four years to just put out an album b |
[03:28.17] | See me and you we almost had the same outcome heath |
[03:31.07] | Cause that Christmas you know that whole neumonia thing |
[03:33.97] | It was bolognia was it the methadonia think |
[03:36.77] | But hydrocordone ya hide inside ya pornos |
[03:39.30] | Ya vcr tape cases put ya ambiants see great places |
[03:42.55] | To hide em aint it, so you can lie to haily |
[03:45.32] | Im going beddy by whitney baby good night elaina |
[03:48.17] | Go in the room and shut the bedroom door |
[03:50.31] | And wake up in an ambulance they say they found me on the bathroom floor |
[03:53.71] | |
[03:54.13] | Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don t know |
[03:57.66] | It feels like ive been down this road before |
[04:00.39] | So lonely and cold it s like something takes over me |
[04:03.63] | As soon as i go home and close the door |
[04:06.17] | God feels like dé jà vu i wanna get away from this place i do |
[04:11.03] | But i cant and i won t say i try but i know it s a lie |
[04:13.98] | cause i don t and why i just don t knowwoooo |
[04:22.32] |
[00:01.37] | 底特律医疗中心,我们发现一位昏迷的35岁男性 |
[00:05.12] | 可能服用药物过度,成分不明 |
[00:07.68] | 脉搏微弱,呼吸8次/分钟 |
[00:10.69] | 已经戴上呼吸机 |
[00:12.74] | 血压急剧下降 |
[00:14.73] | 病患温度下降,皮肤湿冷 |
[00:17.01] | 已吸痰处理,昏迷指数三级(此处应为GCS,三级为严重) |
[00:19.70] | 我们十分钟后到医院 |
[00:22.16] | 当我进入一个狂乱的状态 |
[00:25.12] | 我深陷酒精和毒瘾之潭无法自拔 |
[00:28.76] | 血压急速飙高 |
[00:31.15] | 不由自主地拿起奈奎尔吞了下去 |
[00:34.56] | 一开始我只是想尝一口 |
[00:37.54] | 喝了几口以后,我开始渐渐觉得药效不够 |
[00:40.17] | 我觉得*****(安定剂)会够劲 |
[00:43.20] | 我本只打算吃一颗,最后吞了八颗 |
[00:45.93] | 现在我觉得饿了,我还没有吃饭(*****容易饿) |
[00:48.98] | 不如吃点墨西哥玉米片,再来份牛排吧 |
[00:51.71] | 看着我的女儿,我从没担心过毒瘾会毁掉我的生活 |
[00:55.30] | "妈妈,爸爸又开始不对劲了" |
[00:57.63] | ”变得反复无常,他真的吓到我了" |
[01:00.41] | "又不刮胡子,还假装听不见我的话“ |
[01:03.19] | "整天就只是啃着零食" |
[01:06.04] | "刚刚又吃了三跟巧克力棒,然后在车后座睡着了" |
[01:09.08] | 有时我觉得我好孤单,我也不知为何 |
[01:12.03] | 感觉我曾经走过这段路 |
[01:14.72] | 如冰刀刺骨,寂寞占据了我的身体 |
[01:18.12] | 尤其当我回到家,扣上房门 |
[01:20.55] | 感觉好似似曾相识,我只想快点离开这里 |
[01:25.44] | 但是我做不到,即使我尝试了,这不过是个谎言 |
[01:28.96] | 我不会走,为什么?我也不知道 |
[01:31.94] | "来点冰啤酒嘛?" |
[01:34.18] | 恶魔在我肩上耳语,但我已经戒酒一年了 |
[01:36.95] | 他一直纠缠怂恿着我,他的声音在我脑海里不断萦绕 |
[01:39.78] | "Marshall,我们一起来看节目吧,在播你最喜欢的《牛仔和海盗》噢"" |
[01:42.90] | 要不我来个半杯吧,反正不会醉 |
[01:45.61] | 这点酒马上就能醒,不过就是人为的规矩 |
[01:48.94] | 所以我喝了一半 |
[01:51.58] | 那就把剩下的也喝了吧,听起来很愚蠢 |
[01:54.03] | 没错,我知道,但不就是点小酒 |
[01:57.19] | 我朝着沙发走去,嗷,小心要撞到墙了 |
[02:00.27] | 失去了平衡,像个弹力球撞在地上 |
[02:02.72] | 该死,我是不是又喝多了,连地面都感觉不到了 |
[02:06.07] | 昨晚发生了什么?我现在在哪里? |
[02:08.63] | 该死,我又宿醉了吗 |
[02:11.51] | 头好痛,再来半颗维柯丁吧,为什么不呢 |
[02:14.31] | 我们准备起飞了,其他的请让一让 |
[02:17.56] | 有时我觉得我好孤单,我也不知为何 |
[02:20.59] | 感觉我曾经走过这段路 |
[02:23.30] | 如冰刀刺骨,寂寞占据了我的身体 |
[02:26.53] | 尤其当我一回到家,躲进房间 |
[02:29.08] | 感觉好似似曾相识,我只想快点离开这里 |
[02:34.02] | 但是我做不到,即使我尝试了,这不过是个谎言 |
[02:37.13] | 我不会走,为什么?我也不知道 |
[02:39.90] | 结果我吃了一整颗维柯丁,我的胃顿时感觉一整舒爽 |
[02:42.72] | 几个礼拜之后,我开始觉得药效不够我爽 |
[02:45.44] | 现在只能够我感觉舒服一点,凑合着用 |
[02:48.33] | 要是Proof没有死,我也不会无止境地*****(EM中学时期开始最铁的哥们) |
[02:51.24] | 对,没错,你不过是把Proof的死作为借口 |
[02:54.98] | 只要你觉得能说服自己,做什么都没关系 |
[02:56.86] | 现在是正午12点,不妨睡个午觉吧 |
[02:59.64] | 又不是什么新鲜事,猫王不也是这么做的(猫王成名后也*****成性) |
[03:02.61] | 现在三个月过去了,我又毒瘾复发 |
[03:05.55] | 在孩子们回来前先爽一把吧 |
[03:08.57] | 既然我坚信我自己有失眠症(EM白天没精神需要*****,晚上因为药效需要安眠药才能睡着,不断恶性循环) |
[03:11.23] | 我需要这些药来入睡,所以我又小睡了三次 |
[03:14.03] | 这样才能熬过漫长的一天 |
[03:16.12] | 每次一片安眠药,一天总共,三片 |
[03:19.70] | 我才可以安稳地睡上一个小时 |
[03:22.29] | 现在你知道了,他为什么 |
[03:25.32] | 需要花四年才能做出下一张专辑 |
[03:28.17] | 我差点跟Heath Ledger一样死于***** |
[03:31.07] | 你们还记得那年圣诞节,媒体报道我得肺炎被送去抢救吗 |
[03:33.97] | 胡扯,你难道真的以为不是*****吗 |
[03:36.77] | 还有你藏的** |
[03:39.30] | 你藏在碟盒里的药 |
[03:42.55] | 都藏得天衣无缝吧?所以你安心地Hailie撒谎 |
[03:45.32] | Whitney, Laney"宝贝们,再见啦,爹爹要去睡觉啦"(前妻Kim和另一个男人的女儿;Kim妹妹的孩子) |
[03:48.17] | 走进卧室,关上房门 |
[03:50.31] | 醒来,发现我躺在救护车里;他们说在浴室地板上发现了昏迷的我,该死 |
[03:54.13] | 有时我觉得我好孤单,我也不知为何 |
[03:57.66] | 感觉我曾经走过这段路 |
[04:00.39] | 如冰刀刺骨,寂寞占据了我的身体 |
[04:03.63] | 尤其当我回到家,扣上房门 |
[04:06.17] | 感觉好似似曾相识,我只想快点离开这里 |
[04:11.03] | 但是我做不到,即使我尝试了,这不过是个谎言 |
[04:13.98] | 我不会走,为什么?我也不知道 |