| [00:00.431][Intro: Myalansky] |
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Shit, sometimes man I just |
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Get stressed out I be like damn yo |
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I wanna go over here and smack a ***** up |
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You know what I'm sayin' |
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Crime Syndicate shit though *****s know us |
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Know what I'm saying my peeps put me on |
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For real ... shit's ****ed up yo |
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You know what I'm saying religion's all good |
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But where was heaven? Yo |
| [00:23.471][Verse 1: Myalansky] |
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An ordinary cat from outta projects |
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Since I was younger though |
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Mom raised her children |
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Pops dipped a long time ago |
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In my mind I see flashbacks |
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I had no fancy clothes |
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Skinny, ugly, notty head ***** crying with snotty nose |
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Even though my father neglect he paid the child support |
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Hadn't seen him all these years, I hug his ass in court |
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Always saying I'm coming to get you, and I be waiting to |
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Holiday and birthday presents was never coming through |
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'Member at the age 13, I started smoking weed |
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Hangin' out wit cats that was older, I start to run the street |
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Dropped outta high school, selling drugs, impressing chics |
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Spent most my cheddar on gear |
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My mans was buying whips |
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New York, Jamaican, Miami *****s |
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Flooded Virginia quick |
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Co-signing work, only if buying |
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Prices was high as shit |
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'Member when I first got hit |
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I seen the iron spit |
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50 cats bendin' one corner, bleeding where pellet hit |
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My man Shawn, he held on strong |
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Slug burnt through his lower back side |
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Cracked his spine, exit his arm |
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Lost him twice on the hospital table |
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And when he died, I cried my eyes out |
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I couldn't take it (damn damn) |
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But the same things continued to happen |
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*****s got bust |
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I'm a kid with a grown man's mind turning corrupt |
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Playing innocent infront of my elders |
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I was running with them cats that be robbing too |
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I couldn't tell her |
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If my name was up in any type trouble |
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My moms would tell me |
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Just like you brothers, into some shit, go get a job or something |
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Just a little bum on the street |
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Not working hard for nottin' |
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Scratch I made whenever pumping |
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I hit her off wit' something |
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Making sure the crib stay tight |
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For real I weren't no dummy |
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Timmy where you gettin' this money |
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By washin cars, be lying |
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Saying anything 'sides drugs selling |
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My sister seen me on the block |
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Transact with fiends, saying I'ma tell it |
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Growing up was hell no doubt |
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I wonder where was heaven |
| [02:03.781][Interlude: Myalansky] |
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For real though |
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Always look for that place call heaven |
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It's never there |
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I seen my man's an' 'em gets.. just get blasted |
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On the block |
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Know what I'm saying? |
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I go in the crib I got stains all over my shirt |
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Know what I'm saying? |
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And my mom's knew the type of shit I was going through |
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Cause I was a project kid |
| [02:24.261][Verse 2: Myalansky] |
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Now I'm a grown man |
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Still It's like life dealt me the wrong hand |
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Cat's that was my man be frontin' |
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Or either found dead |
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Sound sad, incarcerated, just turned a new dad |
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Remembering them long ten months from slingin' crack bags |
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Mom put me out with the quickness |
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Carry your black ass |
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I'm still coming back to the crib |
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Oh so you back? Yeah |
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Ma, I just came to holler at you, see how you doing |
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Nothing's changed after all these years |
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Still hustle for some gear |
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Smoke weed, still drink beers |
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I tell you from my heart |
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Yo, times I'm like yeah |
| [02:53.988][Outro: Myalansky] |
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I wonder if heaven has a place on this planet |
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You'd find me right there |
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Just a kid though |
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All I wanna roll wit |
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