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It's a terrible statement but I never let it leave my side. |
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That sickening realization that I'm done with this fight. |
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Moments kneeling on the bedroom floor |
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sickened by the entity I had absorbed no more. |
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I would not let the self-scrutinizing endeavor |
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endure a precipice a monologue questioning my every motive. |
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My disaster stricken heart feeling broken, |
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my emotions quoted spilling out of a broken vase |
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taking the place of what was once your emotion. |
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Diluted with tears, an open book scribbled with fears |
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engraved pools of ink I'm vocally shook; |
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and I'm tired of telling myself that it's gonna change. |
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Taken by the spectacular lie that existence can end. |
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Faulse-hoods predicted my sinners dictated my every decision. |
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An exit of sorts seemed logical, |
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cause I thought I could silence this breath. |
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But contrary to my mindset, |
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I circumvented my threats to silence |
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the demons singing songs in my head; |
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whispering in my ear, that ending it all is a safe bet. |
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Comforting me as I try to manipulate my end. |
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Those moments when I decided I couldn't handle this anymore! |
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Pins and needles infected every sensation I had left! |
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Feeling like this love I had once found had been torn open |
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and left broken in the cold |
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-that the seams holding it together ripped open |
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and my flesh tore open with that is I pray that my breathing would stop. |
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And as I held those staining memories, I held on so tightly; |
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remembering what life used to mean. |
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Selfishly ready to embrace the fact that I am weak! |
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But then I called to you, and I hoped someone would find me; |
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and I found you, and I had hoped someone would call me! |
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Cause I'm listening to these echoes of my own voice |
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leaving damage in the cold, |
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as I feel I have finally grown to the point where I can snap. |
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A point of knowing I could never go back... |
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And it's in the moments I felt most alone. |
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That I told myself no one was there for me; |
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and little did I know, |
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love with sitting right beside me, I just wasn't listening. |
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At this point in my life I don't know many things, |
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but I can promise you this - You are loved completely. |
