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I let intentions hold more power than actions |
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and that's why I fall asleep alone |
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I sit here idly finding timely |
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spacing and phrasing while writing and scribbling |
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words of watered down angst and heartbreak |
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while my spirit runs wildly |
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How I envy my free spirit |
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And how I envy what I was supposed to be |
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My heart inhabiting life's snaking lucid dreams |
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liquid ambitions secret fiction and other seamless things |
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packed in stitch packed in a propaganda to sell my friends |
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on the statement that life holds meaning |
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And I can write about the life I'm living |
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but most often it feels like I'm just writing |
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not living |
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But that's never stopped me before |
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That's never stopped me before so I continue writing |
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and seeing that after love and learning so many things I never wanted to know |
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And now I'm a self-taught professional at letting go |
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Accepting that only black and white in life |
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is now grapevines wrapping around my mind |
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And numbing me into falling into falling in love, |
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A sacred bond now a cultural joke |
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Still trying to live but functioning enough to keep pushing |
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I wish I could finally inhale and exhale freely |
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but sometimes I need to choke |
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I need to be reminded that this is not another formulated system |
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I've come upon in order to feel accepted |
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Or maybe it is |
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Because I've become pretty good at keeping my demons at bay |
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And I always tell myself I got them to go away |
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But every time I move on to a new point in my life |
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I want them to stay |
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And everyday I'll invite them into my home stupidly |
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just so I don't feel so alone |
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Cause now I'm drowning |
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Hoping somebody comes by |
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Or sees me as something worth saving |
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And the interesting thing about falling in love |
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is that sometimes moving on keeps me from moving forward |
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I found out I'm not so grave |
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And I wanted to say this to your face but my pride scared me away |
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So just promise me you'll tell me you love me |
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Even if you're lying |
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Because it's all I wanna hear |
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So just promise me you'll tell me you love me |
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Even if you're lying |
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Because it's all I wanna hear |
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Promise me you'll tell me you love me |
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Because I love you, |
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my dear |
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And I know it's petty |
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I know it's petty |
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But then again, so were we. |
